i have a feeling

i will never get attached and be in a relationship..

each time i think of it, there got to be a thing to stop me from thinking..

and i am afraid for unless the person i like and is also willing to hold me hard enough and understands me enough, there will got to be more trouble and unhappiness and simple little happiness and understanding is all i need...

but i have yet found the one....

and its really hard... the one you like, never like you..

the one you find suitable, willl always end up as others gf

or the one who likes you, is totally not suitable...

and worst of all, if i am uncertain about a thing and that person waits, we will never have any good happy ending..

after i realised it, i lost her..

and i have no slightest idea how i can do to make someone mine..

and i hate it.. why are things so difficult.. and my family complicated environment makes me even harder to do one thing..