good bye...
alll the best...
not going to touch it anymore..
lost the reason that i used to blog for ..
no longer feel like updating things i do
no longer hope for anything ..
let it just die.. keeping the little nice feeling just a lil
and just a lil thing to clarify others..
yes i'm afraid of many things
yes i'm hesitating
yes i'm holding on
yes i'm undecisive of many things
yes i am way lousier than other guys out there..
i have no confidence in myself
i have problem finding topic not to even say funny jokes
i have greater problem opening my mouth to talk without people being friendly to me by throwing a friendly smile..
for now... i close this blog.. till i found the reason or motivation to blog again..
CLOSED!!!
Friday, September 11, 2009
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
wish
if there is a wish to be made, i wish to be with her... every moment every day..
but it is not possible..
looks like i could only just cross her life..
but it is not possible..
looks like i could only just cross her life..
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
habit
lead me and allow me to get use to it and make it a routine.. or i never do it..
a routine that is unlike any other..
a routine that is unlike any other..
Monday, August 17, 2009
action?
i gave a thought about it..
i guess i nv put my words to action by self initiative.. for that.. nv will..
bless me... may i lose my cool and act rashly in the right timing one more time to get that thing settled.
i guess i nv put my words to action by self initiative.. for that.. nv will..
bless me... may i lose my cool and act rashly in the right timing one more time to get that thing settled.
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
dream
i dreamnt... of a long existing problem i had...
cat chong appeared again in my dream.. funny..
it was meant to see her playing and video down in the roller coaster and while it ended,.. i appeared and then i said wrong thing<---stupid problem i had always
got scolded by her frd though she dun mind..
and it ended like "i have so much to tell you but you got no time"
i blog the moment i woke up..
this is the second time i dream of her so unconsciously.. seriously whats up man.. mr brain ..
so weird
cat chong appeared again in my dream.. funny..
it was meant to see her playing and video down in the roller coaster and while it ended,.. i appeared and then i said wrong thing<---stupid problem i had always
got scolded by her frd though she dun mind..
and it ended like "i have so much to tell you but you got no time"
i blog the moment i woke up..
this is the second time i dream of her so unconsciously.. seriously whats up man.. mr brain ..
so weird
Monday, August 3, 2009
amazing
i happen to read a frd's blog, the person happen to find this and think its quite true , which i read now i think its pretty amazing so i posted...
below are part of the person blog ..
And according to The Whisper Cycle Guide: Learning To Talk Your Body’s Language, here are some things that happen to you during the 28-day menstrual cycle:
MENSTRUATION, DAYS 1-7 OF THE CYCLE
What happens?
During their period, women may experience chocolate cravings, can feel low in energy and experience higher levels of stress than normal and can have more sensitive skin. You may also be less prone to jealousy than usual and experience better spatial orientation skills.
Why does this happen?
Low levels of both oestrogen and progesterone.
What can I do?
• Don’t deny yourself a chocolate treat – when your body metabolises this choccy it can help increase levels of serotonin, the ‘happy hormone’
• Go to the gym – a good work-out can help combat tiresome stomach cramps and there’s nothing better than a bit of healthy exercise to boost low energy levels and reduce stress
• Impress him – while your jealousy levels are low encourage your man to go out on the town with his mates and…
• …get him to treat you to a soothing body massage in return, while your skin is extrasensitive!
• Don’t wax, as this could be even more painful than usual!
• Don’t forget to show off your enhanced parking skills with your heightened spatial awareness!
PRE-OVULATION, DAYS 8-14 OF THE CYCLE
What happens?
Where do we start? You’ll probably feel flirtier, better hair days, heightened verbal fluency skills, increased memory, improved mood levels and generally be less aggressive, more creative and have a better sense of smell. The only down-side is that you can be more subject to jealousy than usual.
Why does this happen?
Oestrogen levels increase.
What can I do?
• Impress at important presentations and interviews with your enhance verbal fluency skills
• If you’re single and searching it’s a good time to go on the pull as you’re raring for some action and can seductively flick that great-looking hair
• Beware of the green-eyed monster – instead of scowling at women checking out your man, smile and rejoice in your good taste!
POST-OVULATION, DAYS 15-21 OF THE CYCLE
What happens?
Sensitivity to pain reduces at this stage but unfortunately this comes with the first signs of PMS, classic symptoms being mood swings, irritability and fluid retention.
Why does this happen?
Oestrogen levels decrease as progesterone levels increase.
What can I do?
It’s not all doom and gloom because there are TONS of things you can do to help you feel good!
• Cut down on salty foods and coffee to help combat fluid retention
• In fact, drinking water is great for your well-being in general, so you should try drinking 2 litres a day
• Combat mood swings and irritability by pampering yourself with bubble baths and burn some relaxing aromatherapy oils for total relaxation
• Or call a friend who always makes you giggle!
PRE-MENSTRUAL, DAYS 22-28 OF THE CYCLE
What happens?
In addition to the previous PMS symptoms, you may also experience chocolate cravings, disturbed sleep, increased daytime sleepiness, greasier hair than usual, bad hair days and more spots!
Yikes. On the plus side (there is one!) you may experience a lower sensitivity to pain during this time too.
Why does this happen?
Progesterone continues to dominate on the hormone level as PMS kicks in.
What can I do?
• The buzzword here is water: drink lots of water as it is good for you!
• Continue to cut down on salt and coffee to help combat the effects of fluid retention
• Try washing greasy hair more often than usual
• Avoid bad hair days with some clever styling tricks: cool hats, hair scraped back into the ever trendy pony-tail, hair serum or cute Pippi Longstocking plaits – the choice is yours
• For a better night’s sleep, have a long hot bath just before bed-time to help you relax and reduce stress
• Make sure you snuggle in a sleep-inducing environment – your bedroom should be cool, dark and quiet and your bed should be spacious and comfortable. A good night’s sleep should help combat daytime sleepiness too
• This is the best time to wax your legs because of the lower pain sensitivity!
below are part of the person blog ..
And according to The Whisper Cycle Guide: Learning To Talk Your Body’s Language, here are some things that happen to you during the 28-day menstrual cycle:
MENSTRUATION, DAYS 1-7 OF THE CYCLE
What happens?
During their period, women may experience chocolate cravings, can feel low in energy and experience higher levels of stress than normal and can have more sensitive skin. You may also be less prone to jealousy than usual and experience better spatial orientation skills.
Why does this happen?
Low levels of both oestrogen and progesterone.
What can I do?
• Don’t deny yourself a chocolate treat – when your body metabolises this choccy it can help increase levels of serotonin, the ‘happy hormone’
• Go to the gym – a good work-out can help combat tiresome stomach cramps and there’s nothing better than a bit of healthy exercise to boost low energy levels and reduce stress
• Impress him – while your jealousy levels are low encourage your man to go out on the town with his mates and…
• …get him to treat you to a soothing body massage in return, while your skin is extrasensitive!
• Don’t wax, as this could be even more painful than usual!
• Don’t forget to show off your enhanced parking skills with your heightened spatial awareness!
PRE-OVULATION, DAYS 8-14 OF THE CYCLE
What happens?
Where do we start? You’ll probably feel flirtier, better hair days, heightened verbal fluency skills, increased memory, improved mood levels and generally be less aggressive, more creative and have a better sense of smell. The only down-side is that you can be more subject to jealousy than usual.
Why does this happen?
Oestrogen levels increase.
What can I do?
• Impress at important presentations and interviews with your enhance verbal fluency skills
• If you’re single and searching it’s a good time to go on the pull as you’re raring for some action and can seductively flick that great-looking hair
• Beware of the green-eyed monster – instead of scowling at women checking out your man, smile and rejoice in your good taste!
POST-OVULATION, DAYS 15-21 OF THE CYCLE
What happens?
Sensitivity to pain reduces at this stage but unfortunately this comes with the first signs of PMS, classic symptoms being mood swings, irritability and fluid retention.
Why does this happen?
Oestrogen levels decrease as progesterone levels increase.
What can I do?
It’s not all doom and gloom because there are TONS of things you can do to help you feel good!
• Cut down on salty foods and coffee to help combat fluid retention
• In fact, drinking water is great for your well-being in general, so you should try drinking 2 litres a day
• Combat mood swings and irritability by pampering yourself with bubble baths and burn some relaxing aromatherapy oils for total relaxation
• Or call a friend who always makes you giggle!
PRE-MENSTRUAL, DAYS 22-28 OF THE CYCLE
What happens?
In addition to the previous PMS symptoms, you may also experience chocolate cravings, disturbed sleep, increased daytime sleepiness, greasier hair than usual, bad hair days and more spots!
Yikes. On the plus side (there is one!) you may experience a lower sensitivity to pain during this time too.
Why does this happen?
Progesterone continues to dominate on the hormone level as PMS kicks in.
What can I do?
• The buzzword here is water: drink lots of water as it is good for you!
• Continue to cut down on salt and coffee to help combat the effects of fluid retention
• Try washing greasy hair more often than usual
• Avoid bad hair days with some clever styling tricks: cool hats, hair scraped back into the ever trendy pony-tail, hair serum or cute Pippi Longstocking plaits – the choice is yours
• For a better night’s sleep, have a long hot bath just before bed-time to help you relax and reduce stress
• Make sure you snuggle in a sleep-inducing environment – your bedroom should be cool, dark and quiet and your bed should be spacious and comfortable. A good night’s sleep should help combat daytime sleepiness too
• This is the best time to wax your legs because of the lower pain sensitivity!
Monday, July 27, 2009
r/s??
nah just have one random thought.. dunno how long i am going to stay single with the uncertainty i am facing..
maybe at least 4 years more? why? cos it will then be near marriage age then i am force to panic and get one hahaa..
well just let it off once again and drag till time force me to make decision.. too use to it being alone.... more carefree, no unneccessary pain and trouble i need to go through.. but just i willl not get the one very precious and wholesome thing...
ok thats it.. too many love song and some chat making me think of it.. study and be a nerd bah...
locked up zone once again..closed once again..
maybe at least 4 years more? why? cos it will then be near marriage age then i am force to panic and get one hahaa..
well just let it off once again and drag till time force me to make decision.. too use to it being alone.... more carefree, no unneccessary pain and trouble i need to go through.. but just i willl not get the one very precious and wholesome thing...
ok thats it.. too many love song and some chat making me think of it.. study and be a nerd bah...
locked up zone once again..closed once again..
Thursday, July 23, 2009
lol
ha ha .. enough of the silly blog for last entry..
now for real... this week no sch week is helll of a ........
but then towards the weekend, it is hell of a .......
well well well.......... hell man...
lol
studying soon.... study... if only i a could make myself touch my book more... my curiousity will bring me far... being a graduate and not degree holder
ok enough.. why write so much when all is said and done and close friend will not need to read to know anyway..
we'll catch up right? haa... giving myself more chance to meet you people... do meet up yeah.. keke
ciaoz..
now for real... this week no sch week is helll of a ........
but then towards the weekend, it is hell of a .......
well well well.......... hell man...
lol
studying soon.... study... if only i a could make myself touch my book more... my curiousity will bring me far... being a graduate and not degree holder
ok enough.. why write so much when all is said and done and close friend will not need to read to know anyway..
we'll catch up right? haa... giving myself more chance to meet you people... do meet up yeah.. keke
ciaoz..
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
??
hip hop, salsa, study, martial arts, sleep,meet up
movie,museum
club????
Lan??
Ktv??
if you know what it all means.. decipher yourself..
movie,museum
club????
Lan??
Ktv??
if you know what it all means.. decipher yourself..
Sunday, July 12, 2009
inspired by MJ
well it has been weeks since the announcement of our king of pop departure from the world...
why in the first place, such a great singer is not cherished and some wanna criticised him from his error made and only till now, when his gone from the world, then there are people who decides rmb his good and once again bury the hatchet and show their love for him...
why must others lose something then they will realise how unforgettable that person is to them?
i just hope those who do not cherish things will learn how to cherish what they have ...
no doubt his music is good...
no doubt it has been part of our life...
how i wish he had continued releasing album so good that it continues to thrill us to the core..
his music is till now, in the english music industry, the only kind and one that will keep me feel that its nice and unique..
old it may be but good music should not be abandonned becos it is created way back so long it has its unique taste and its nice..
now that his gone.. there is only memories to be kept..
rest in peace... michael jackson...
why in the first place, such a great singer is not cherished and some wanna criticised him from his error made and only till now, when his gone from the world, then there are people who decides rmb his good and once again bury the hatchet and show their love for him...
why must others lose something then they will realise how unforgettable that person is to them?
i just hope those who do not cherish things will learn how to cherish what they have ...
no doubt his music is good...
no doubt it has been part of our life...
how i wish he had continued releasing album so good that it continues to thrill us to the core..
his music is till now, in the english music industry, the only kind and one that will keep me feel that its nice and unique..
old it may be but good music should not be abandonned becos it is created way back so long it has its unique taste and its nice..
now that his gone.. there is only memories to be kept..
rest in peace... michael jackson...
Sunday, July 5, 2009
in life
for life, there are many things that are more important..
yet there are many who do not realised it...
if all the people do realised things like how the philosopher do, there will be no such things as growing up..
thus it is not achievable...
many thing is no big deal after all once you look back..
will you go all out despite the weird timing just to accomplish what you want to do before its too late? or will you rather save the pride and gamble with time to save it for a perfect moment...and what if tmr nv comes?
would you ever pause to wonder why people will do the thing they do and what leads them to react that way?
would you rather be forgiving or penalised them?
no single people is different from each other...yet people perceived themselves differently...
it all goes back to basic and the life they went through after all...
life itself is not complicated... but it is made complicated..
and what we need, is just a little understanding....
yet there are many who do not realised it...
if all the people do realised things like how the philosopher do, there will be no such things as growing up..
thus it is not achievable...
many thing is no big deal after all once you look back..
will you go all out despite the weird timing just to accomplish what you want to do before its too late? or will you rather save the pride and gamble with time to save it for a perfect moment...and what if tmr nv comes?
would you ever pause to wonder why people will do the thing they do and what leads them to react that way?
would you rather be forgiving or penalised them?
no single people is different from each other...yet people perceived themselves differently...
it all goes back to basic and the life they went through after all...
life itself is not complicated... but it is made complicated..
and what we need, is just a little understanding....
Thursday, July 2, 2009
SCH STARTED
OMG... disaster..... school have started!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and what disaster have just happened? my hands are going to declare detached soon..
but actually..
seriously speaking..
life in school is pretty routine and boring..
nothing special happen..
except....
actually nothing.. lol
football in class without a ball counted?
people celebrating birthday counted?<--but i not involve
"happily" writing notes down counted?
so in view of all these, i find its rather bored so...
i decide to pop by ulu pandan campus to learn a new dance call bachata.. 2 lesson only anyway..
going soon.. after that i dunno..
maybe.. tmr and the day after might go out alone for fun.. rather bored anyway.. weekend dunno anyone will be available or not.. yawn i nv ask everytime anyway haha..whos free?
alright nth else to write.. just scram off now jy..
till then.. tata
and what disaster have just happened? my hands are going to declare detached soon..
but actually..
seriously speaking..
life in school is pretty routine and boring..
nothing special happen..
except....
actually nothing.. lol
football in class without a ball counted?
people celebrating birthday counted?<--but i not involve
"happily" writing notes down counted?
so in view of all these, i find its rather bored so...
i decide to pop by ulu pandan campus to learn a new dance call bachata.. 2 lesson only anyway..
going soon.. after that i dunno..
maybe.. tmr and the day after might go out alone for fun.. rather bored anyway.. weekend dunno anyone will be available or not.. yawn i nv ask everytime anyway haha..whos free?
alright nth else to write.. just scram off now jy..
till then.. tata
Monday, June 29, 2009
just a question for myself
where do my interest lies?
nothing seems to excite me and let me want to strive for the best of the best unconsciously...so much that i did not realised i am actually working so hard towards..
with an effort that i can feel a limit just isn't the one that can fit into this category..
so what is it???????????
questionmark.....
??????????????????????????????
?????????????????????????????????
an answer i will need to find out..
maybe its something i dun get to do just as yet....
maybe.....
nothing seems to excite me and let me want to strive for the best of the best unconsciously...so much that i did not realised i am actually working so hard towards..
with an effort that i can feel a limit just isn't the one that can fit into this category..
so what is it???????????
questionmark.....
??????????????????????????????
?????????????????????????????????
an answer i will need to find out..
maybe its something i dun get to do just as yet....
maybe.....
Thursday, June 4, 2009
^^
kids are just so cute..
one moment they throw trantum at each other.. the other moment.. you see them making each other laugh again..
hahah ^^
cute..
one moment they throw trantum at each other.. the other moment.. you see them making each other laugh again..
hahah ^^
cute..
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
i agree
there is something i agree...
bravery comes with the price of losing something..
so long you are not afraid to lose it, you can be brave enough to do it..
but if you are one who cherish things, all the more you will feel afraid to do something....
when one is not afriad of the consequences of do not care about it, he can be really brave... so brave that you asking why he have the guts..
but in the other hand.. once he had experience in losing it and when he learned to cherish it, he will be afraid to lose it and all the more he will be afriad to do things making him a timid..
so those who always won and failed litle can picked up easily and brave on..
but who would have thought those who always lost and won little can easily pick up and be brave once again?
some people just have the right way to do it and have some instinct for it.. some people actually do not really have it and how are they going to make it?
so all the more you need to try tings, make sure you can really harden yourself and ignore the consequences and not afraid to lose it... once you had little hope to cherish it , gone is your bravery...
dead and gone....
bravery comes with the price of losing something..
so long you are not afraid to lose it, you can be brave enough to do it..
but if you are one who cherish things, all the more you will feel afraid to do something....
when one is not afriad of the consequences of do not care about it, he can be really brave... so brave that you asking why he have the guts..
but in the other hand.. once he had experience in losing it and when he learned to cherish it, he will be afraid to lose it and all the more he will be afriad to do things making him a timid..
so those who always won and failed litle can picked up easily and brave on..
but who would have thought those who always lost and won little can easily pick up and be brave once again?
some people just have the right way to do it and have some instinct for it.. some people actually do not really have it and how are they going to make it?
so all the more you need to try tings, make sure you can really harden yourself and ignore the consequences and not afraid to lose it... once you had little hope to cherish it , gone is your bravery...
dead and gone....
Thursday, May 28, 2009
nth
i am living in comfty... infiltrate my world please..
hahaha..
i must be crazy haha..
or maybe i shall launch an attack soon again.. since ancient it is always our duty to do the bad thing and see if we are accepted ahahha
no peace... roar...
ok enough of crap.. i'm waiting for chalet on friday..saturday jurong point got jolin tsai coming wow.. 1pm.. feel like rush back and see haha..
there after... training for work and actual work.. 4 days salary only
and.. its waiting for ICT..
i wonder if the pub job can accept or not.. then next time go there work for money.. haa near only anyway..
citibank i guess is goner.. so long alr no news
gv also.. maybe if i want i got schedule now can try again.. sch days go gv work.. grr... revise the schedule and consider reapply see how..
i need money.. i wanna go oversea. hahaha
and i going to buy all the stuff lacking for me to groom and cure whatever i wanted to...
now that i decided to slash some contact off.. i should have more money for myself.. damn spend till i wasted money.. those people merely is not worth it to spend on them i realise..
to think i treat them thinking they are ok... they still backstab behind my back...
and itch again.. wanna write something but then... i guess not... orevious post stir up a bit of crooks in talking again i guess.. lets not get them busy...i write at other blog for my inspiration.. maybe can ask my writer friend to see if he wanna use haha...
ciaoz.. haha
you know i love you..
gossip boy olol
hahaha..
i must be crazy haha..
or maybe i shall launch an attack soon again.. since ancient it is always our duty to do the bad thing and see if we are accepted ahahha
no peace... roar...
ok enough of crap.. i'm waiting for chalet on friday..saturday jurong point got jolin tsai coming wow.. 1pm.. feel like rush back and see haha..
there after... training for work and actual work.. 4 days salary only
and.. its waiting for ICT..
i wonder if the pub job can accept or not.. then next time go there work for money.. haa near only anyway..
citibank i guess is goner.. so long alr no news
gv also.. maybe if i want i got schedule now can try again.. sch days go gv work.. grr... revise the schedule and consider reapply see how..
i need money.. i wanna go oversea. hahaha
and i going to buy all the stuff lacking for me to groom and cure whatever i wanted to...
now that i decided to slash some contact off.. i should have more money for myself.. damn spend till i wasted money.. those people merely is not worth it to spend on them i realise..
to think i treat them thinking they are ok... they still backstab behind my back...
and itch again.. wanna write something but then... i guess not... orevious post stir up a bit of crooks in talking again i guess.. lets not get them busy...i write at other blog for my inspiration.. maybe can ask my writer friend to see if he wanna use haha...
ciaoz.. haha
you know i love you..
gossip boy olol
Monday, May 25, 2009
21 may 2009.. i willl rmb this day
what a day..full of surprises and happy day for me..
sent bro's maid off to airport today.. and i activate my..."since i am out why not go out for a while" mindset haaa...
then on the way.. i choose between bugis and orchard...since i went city hall before alr..
and guess what.. i am at orchard..
and suddenly i thought of using the expiring ticket i held...
and wowla... i ended up catchoing night at the museum 2 haha..
wow... night at the museum 2 is nice .... those who watched night at the museum will appreciate and understand better for this.. i made a right choice watching it today.. i feel so glad ^^ no more dragging till everyone is free and watch it on the dot on the day it is released haha.. i'm bored anyway...
its hilarious and adventurious.. nice..
the love part.. is just something i doubt any girls nowadays will do..
the cupid.. is just so nice.. songs ^^ love it..
monkey... now with 2.. is just as witty and cutey as ever haa.. irritating some said..
with the company ard.. i guess they enjoyed the show as much as i do too... i wish they had a good night..smilng with happiness sweetly into the dream and dreamnt of the show haaa... probably the love part.. where it could not really happpen in reality...
and whats next.... interesting... i went to..................
Jurong....................................................
which means...
HOME SWEET HOME...
keke..
sent bro's maid off to airport today.. and i activate my..."since i am out why not go out for a while" mindset haaa...
then on the way.. i choose between bugis and orchard...since i went city hall before alr..
and guess what.. i am at orchard..
and suddenly i thought of using the expiring ticket i held...
and wowla... i ended up catchoing night at the museum 2 haha..
wow... night at the museum 2 is nice .... those who watched night at the museum will appreciate and understand better for this.. i made a right choice watching it today.. i feel so glad ^^ no more dragging till everyone is free and watch it on the dot on the day it is released haha.. i'm bored anyway...
its hilarious and adventurious.. nice..
the love part.. is just something i doubt any girls nowadays will do..
the cupid.. is just so nice.. songs ^^ love it..
monkey... now with 2.. is just as witty and cutey as ever haa.. irritating some said..
with the company ard.. i guess they enjoyed the show as much as i do too... i wish they had a good night..smilng with happiness sweetly into the dream and dreamnt of the show haaa... probably the love part.. where it could not really happpen in reality...
and whats next.... interesting... i went to..................
Jurong....................................................
which means...
HOME SWEET HOME...
keke..
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
just being bored and thinking of things to write..
midst covered my path... i see no one anymore except image of human..unforeseen faces and characters... behind is all clear yet i cant look back... but cant stop from wondering... whose behind me supporting me all this while...
looking sideways... eyes half tiled.. it is not clear whose walking alongside me... some familiar scent and image i might smell and seen before... but it will never be know fully without confirmation with them telling me who they are...after a long time and pass by lots of people..
turning to confirm, yet will partially slow down me again from the danger ahead... and will need help from them to alert me...everything requires attention... trade off... is what people always faces...
yet sometimes, should you pass by a good soul, your back is safetly covered for.. but should you pass by a bad soul and never alert yourself from shoving away from them, you will never know what will they do behind your back.. yet looking back to prevent and cure what they might do will slow your progress down again and you got to stop walking.. probably hurt you so much that you need time to recover before you look forward and progress again.. crooks.. thats what i call those bastards...
along the road.. you may walked a wrong path.. miss out things and caused inconveniece and harm to others but there is no perfect road and smooth sailing ... forgiveness and willing to change and walk the correct path will lead you to your destination.. avoid mistakes.. or you will hold yourself back by trouble that you caused before and when others are not forgiving enough to stop bringing harm to you...
be grateful...for frds supporting you behind... maybe you cannot look back but help them move forward when they want to and grab you for help if your side are empty and able to and walk side by side to face the danger... ignore them and they will leave your life forever as your distance between each other is lengthened.. and dun forget.. they are behind you.. good soul turn bad.. that is the last thing you want to know...... look up to those in front.. you might want to know what they do to be ahead of you...
whatever it is... sometimes... you need to rest.. or else you might lost track of where you are heading due to fatigue and need to give yourself time to review and think through your route so you will be able to adjust yourself.. people may help you but they got their own route to go through too and help cannot be forever..
look up... observe the sky... see how the times flies day by day... so while resting.. you can make sure you do not take too long... and rest enough and make sure you move on short after you rested enough.. or else staying there and keep reviewing will lead you no where...its sometimes the emotional feeling that is most hard to fight for you to press on...help and encouragement will be needed when you cant stand on yourself temporary... but what matter most is yourself...
press on.. be brave... walk through your mistakes... master your fear... be... the better you..
---------THE END---------------
looking sideways... eyes half tiled.. it is not clear whose walking alongside me... some familiar scent and image i might smell and seen before... but it will never be know fully without confirmation with them telling me who they are...after a long time and pass by lots of people..
turning to confirm, yet will partially slow down me again from the danger ahead... and will need help from them to alert me...everything requires attention... trade off... is what people always faces...
yet sometimes, should you pass by a good soul, your back is safetly covered for.. but should you pass by a bad soul and never alert yourself from shoving away from them, you will never know what will they do behind your back.. yet looking back to prevent and cure what they might do will slow your progress down again and you got to stop walking.. probably hurt you so much that you need time to recover before you look forward and progress again.. crooks.. thats what i call those bastards...
along the road.. you may walked a wrong path.. miss out things and caused inconveniece and harm to others but there is no perfect road and smooth sailing ... forgiveness and willing to change and walk the correct path will lead you to your destination.. avoid mistakes.. or you will hold yourself back by trouble that you caused before and when others are not forgiving enough to stop bringing harm to you...
be grateful...for frds supporting you behind... maybe you cannot look back but help them move forward when they want to and grab you for help if your side are empty and able to and walk side by side to face the danger... ignore them and they will leave your life forever as your distance between each other is lengthened.. and dun forget.. they are behind you.. good soul turn bad.. that is the last thing you want to know...... look up to those in front.. you might want to know what they do to be ahead of you...
whatever it is... sometimes... you need to rest.. or else you might lost track of where you are heading due to fatigue and need to give yourself time to review and think through your route so you will be able to adjust yourself.. people may help you but they got their own route to go through too and help cannot be forever..
look up... observe the sky... see how the times flies day by day... so while resting.. you can make sure you do not take too long... and rest enough and make sure you move on short after you rested enough.. or else staying there and keep reviewing will lead you no where...its sometimes the emotional feeling that is most hard to fight for you to press on...help and encouragement will be needed when you cant stand on yourself temporary... but what matter most is yourself...
press on.. be brave... walk through your mistakes... master your fear... be... the better you..
---------THE END---------------
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Friday, May 15, 2009
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
you know what?
i was reading my last blog.. slapped myself a little again...
my mum's back... now i appreciate it.... with someone ard and with no one ard is simply different..
althoug you may stick to your room as usual, theatmosphere and feeling is simmply different..
i actually feel like staying home and have the mood to watch movie and drama at home...things that never will occur to me when no one is home..
i ever have this thought on what will i be if i had never commit such a grave error back then.... will life be much better than now..
probably without a bad name.. things will go on in a easier mode.....i just wish i never put my clinque in the position of being classified as weirdo and broke their possibility of getting to know friends due to me..
still..... i got myself to repair out of the bad name.. maybe.. mistakes makes me grow up.. i needed it to improve.. which i said before.. i want to be better and better yet i cant seem to find what to be better on and this mistake just makes me realised things.. revealed me to many if not, all the things i have to become better on...
and for once.. i started to feel like not knowing hhaa...well well... for the better me.....lets strive...
BE THE BEST OUT OF THE WORLD...... probably this is what it takes to really put my dreams into practice and finally be what i always wanted to achieve.. starting from personality that will eventually lead to my destination...if i were to make what i thinnk real.... i got THAT MUCH to learn before i really excel to be what i thiink i can be......
and laziness is sure the top of the list...combined with some personality changes for a start...
WAY TO GO....<-- sounnds a long way and demoralising so i change
ITS NOT GONNA BE LONG..GOGOGO!!!!!
^^ i knoow self hynotised dun work nor writing down so TIMe.. thats all i need... gotta prove it.... yeah!!! <-- i always hate to admit but this time i have to agree.... my elder brother was right.. i have to prove things.. and my eldest was right too... put words into action and stop procastinating.. i have great siblings and parents... i regretted putting their upbringing to a doubt by my foolish conduct...
r/s... although people says first time sure fail so go get experience.. but i dun like experience.. this is no play thing thoough it is needed to know what right to do and whats not in being tgt with someone..i only hope.. if it comes it will stay.. lets start first in making myself better...others... will makes its way and find a chapter in my life someday..
my mum's back... now i appreciate it.... with someone ard and with no one ard is simply different..
althoug you may stick to your room as usual, theatmosphere and feeling is simmply different..
i actually feel like staying home and have the mood to watch movie and drama at home...things that never will occur to me when no one is home..
i ever have this thought on what will i be if i had never commit such a grave error back then.... will life be much better than now..
probably without a bad name.. things will go on in a easier mode.....i just wish i never put my clinque in the position of being classified as weirdo and broke their possibility of getting to know friends due to me..
still..... i got myself to repair out of the bad name.. maybe.. mistakes makes me grow up.. i needed it to improve.. which i said before.. i want to be better and better yet i cant seem to find what to be better on and this mistake just makes me realised things.. revealed me to many if not, all the things i have to become better on...
and for once.. i started to feel like not knowing hhaa...well well... for the better me.....lets strive...
BE THE BEST OUT OF THE WORLD...... probably this is what it takes to really put my dreams into practice and finally be what i always wanted to achieve.. starting from personality that will eventually lead to my destination...if i were to make what i thinnk real.... i got THAT MUCH to learn before i really excel to be what i thiink i can be......
and laziness is sure the top of the list...combined with some personality changes for a start...
WAY TO GO....<-- sounnds a long way and demoralising so i change
ITS NOT GONNA BE LONG..GOGOGO!!!!!
^^ i knoow self hynotised dun work nor writing down so TIMe.. thats all i need... gotta prove it.... yeah!!! <-- i always hate to admit but this time i have to agree.... my elder brother was right.. i have to prove things.. and my eldest was right too... put words into action and stop procastinating.. i have great siblings and parents... i regretted putting their upbringing to a doubt by my foolish conduct...
r/s... although people says first time sure fail so go get experience.. but i dun like experience.. this is no play thing thoough it is needed to know what right to do and whats not in being tgt with someone..i only hope.. if it comes it will stay.. lets start first in making myself better...others... will makes its way and find a chapter in my life someday..
Monday, May 11, 2009
just something
it was told that a man should fight for his love and what he belief in despite the obstacles and differences that behold him in front..
i wonder if i should do the same...
face the storm again and reach for the epicentre ?
current answer: unknown... i am not a good calibre enough for this thingy..and i dun have what a typical man should have -->self confidence...
but whatever it is.. i guess ..just friends....
what i meant is.... not going to get gf at current
i wonder if i should do the same...
face the storm again and reach for the epicentre ?
current answer: unknown... i am not a good calibre enough for this thingy..and i dun have what a typical man should have -->self confidence...
but whatever it is.. i guess ..just friends....
what i meant is.... not going to get gf at current
Friday, May 8, 2009
1,2,3 and..
exam is over.... gonna give myself 2 day break since it be weekend..
after that i am going to so visit agenbcy and hope to get a job...
sigh now that exam is over..have no idea what to do...
nothing to occupy my mind..
need money..
maybe will go back malaysia if really cant find..
haiz.. everyone is leaving... so sad...
for once i thought i can be no longer a loner... yet i think i got to accept beiing one... just cant seem to bond with people since i think it lies with me..
maybe admitting defeat will just make my life better... no expectation, no sadness, no depression, no nothing..life will be happier and content..
probably if i cant mixed in to the group who chase fashion and being look down at and said shitty things regarding dressing, i guess i should just take it.. cant satisfy everyone everything anyway
haiz some friends i really wanna keep yet due to other tell me not so friendly, i dun try to go talk... in the end, i also dunno how i project to them.. think if i cant secure them, i just have to let go..
well............ lets not go further................
see how... what meant to be will be....
always say all this sigh.. i should learn to shut up.. lol
till now
after that i am going to so visit agenbcy and hope to get a job...
sigh now that exam is over..have no idea what to do...
nothing to occupy my mind..
need money..
maybe will go back malaysia if really cant find..
haiz.. everyone is leaving... so sad...
for once i thought i can be no longer a loner... yet i think i got to accept beiing one... just cant seem to bond with people since i think it lies with me..
maybe admitting defeat will just make my life better... no expectation, no sadness, no depression, no nothing..life will be happier and content..
probably if i cant mixed in to the group who chase fashion and being look down at and said shitty things regarding dressing, i guess i should just take it.. cant satisfy everyone everything anyway
haiz some friends i really wanna keep yet due to other tell me not so friendly, i dun try to go talk... in the end, i also dunno how i project to them.. think if i cant secure them, i just have to let go..
well............ lets not go further................
see how... what meant to be will be....
always say all this sigh.. i should learn to shut up.. lol
till now
Sunday, May 3, 2009
exam
i feel bad.. despite trying.. i still have a feeling i am going to fail..
did not do well alr is not good..
failure to get hd or di is alr not satisfying parent expectation..
yet now i am going to fail..... wtf have i been doing...
the rest of the ppaper should be ok.. hope to perform..
yet this fail will have a great impact on my life
geezz....
kah yau!!!! not well learnt enough to display your full capability... 1 demerit point... <-- crazy i am talking to myself ..insane man...lol
discipline!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!discipline!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
motivation!!!!!!!!!!!!!! motivation!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
seek knowledge!!!!!!!!!!!sek improvement!!!!!!!!!!!
GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
did not do well alr is not good..
failure to get hd or di is alr not satisfying parent expectation..
yet now i am going to fail..... wtf have i been doing...
the rest of the ppaper should be ok.. hope to perform..
yet this fail will have a great impact on my life
geezz....
kah yau!!!! not well learnt enough to display your full capability... 1 demerit point... <-- crazy i am talking to myself ..insane man...lol
discipline!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!discipline!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
motivation!!!!!!!!!!!!!! motivation!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
seek knowledge!!!!!!!!!!!sek improvement!!!!!!!!!!!
GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
tired
weakness nv change
strength fading
situation nv change
from many back to only one..
coward
undisciplined
cannot hold one ground
save him..
beeeeeeeeeeeeppppppppppppppppppppppp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
strength fading
situation nv change
from many back to only one..
coward
undisciplined
cannot hold one ground
save him..
beeeeeeeeeeeeppppppppppppppppppppppp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, April 12, 2009
reform..
its time to work on my internal...
its just diffficult to strike a balance....
i wonder since when it had gone to this extend...
all i need to do, is to change back to merely what i could be last time...
other improvements.. wait till i'm there first..
hope i do not make more mistakes throughout the reforming of myself..
its just diffficult to strike a balance....
i wonder since when it had gone to this extend...
all i need to do, is to change back to merely what i could be last time...
other improvements.. wait till i'm there first..
hope i do not make more mistakes throughout the reforming of myself..
haiz
i guess i dun fit in to the group anymore..
i grow up, not wanting people to disrespect me like that.... do the stuff when its not a majority decision.. its not like its a confusion of decision that requires him to make decision and do it his way this time.. its like more to what he want and thinking the group will abide to it..cos his the boss..
i can be anything.. so long its a group decision..its just not logical to be revolving ard him and we are always the one more to accomodate him..at least if there is room for discussion its alright... he did not even open up to discuss it.. thats what angers me...
i hate being disrespected.. this is always something that never fail in driving my anger up... he use to have respect for people.. now? .. not..
maybe when his with me only maybe he will still remember... with a group, he lose it.. i appreciated the way he chose lemon tea..and watch movie proposal...its becos he is still ok with it... for things he dun want, he never leave room for discussion and just do it his way.. thats what i hate..
if only things he dun like he also try to convince us to change decision and stick to what his ok with rather then disrespect people like that... nth will happen..
bottom line: respect people no matter who they are...even if they normally ok with things, do still ask them to show your basic respect to them as an individual..
i grow up, not wanting people to disrespect me like that.... do the stuff when its not a majority decision.. its not like its a confusion of decision that requires him to make decision and do it his way this time.. its like more to what he want and thinking the group will abide to it..cos his the boss..
i can be anything.. so long its a group decision..its just not logical to be revolving ard him and we are always the one more to accomodate him..at least if there is room for discussion its alright... he did not even open up to discuss it.. thats what angers me...
i hate being disrespected.. this is always something that never fail in driving my anger up... he use to have respect for people.. now? .. not..
maybe when his with me only maybe he will still remember... with a group, he lose it.. i appreciated the way he chose lemon tea..and watch movie proposal...its becos he is still ok with it... for things he dun want, he never leave room for discussion and just do it his way.. thats what i hate..
if only things he dun like he also try to convince us to change decision and stick to what his ok with rather then disrespect people like that... nth will happen..
bottom line: respect people no matter who they are...even if they normally ok with things, do still ask them to show your basic respect to them as an individual..
Friday, April 10, 2009
last day of school
well i have reached my last day of school...
i think my life for the next 2 years will be just like that... got friends.... but end of it all, alone... thinking abt it just makes me go out of my pace once before... now i just think.... wait bah... fate will decide when its time... so those who care about me.. i'm sorry i officially gave up...
so whats is coming up for my life?
i'm meeting my sec sch teacher tmr keke... been long..
night zouk for bachata event.. <-- a kind of social dance
and drink till drop after event over.. dress code red.. omg i dunno what to wear liao..
sat parents flying off again... what shall i do?
no plans... study have to be in my schedule due to exam on 30 april...
nth else to write... am no interesting guy so its just a boring blog haa...
"sometimes, without losing it, you dun know what you had... yet even if you know, it just cant do without knowing how to secure it..even if knowing, it does not mean you can do what you wanted without prcticing it"
i think my life for the next 2 years will be just like that... got friends.... but end of it all, alone... thinking abt it just makes me go out of my pace once before... now i just think.... wait bah... fate will decide when its time... so those who care about me.. i'm sorry i officially gave up...
so whats is coming up for my life?
i'm meeting my sec sch teacher tmr keke... been long..
night zouk for bachata event.. <-- a kind of social dance
and drink till drop after event over.. dress code red.. omg i dunno what to wear liao..
sat parents flying off again... what shall i do?
no plans... study have to be in my schedule due to exam on 30 april...
nth else to write... am no interesting guy so its just a boring blog haa...
"sometimes, without losing it, you dun know what you had... yet even if you know, it just cant do without knowing how to secure it..even if knowing, it does not mean you can do what you wanted without prcticing it"
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
abt blog..
for my brothers....i decided to re=activate the blog...
initially.. decide to just off it ..
now.. i think i just have to learn to think before i write..
well bro..... this are things i do lately..
study... test... now i am on my last week of lecture... tburs officially ends the lecture... and 30 april is my exam.. last till one week later...
late jun i have reservist.. yes you are right... back to the greenery and haste... no more slow and lazy me while in there... only fast and furious.. else kenna pump lol...
i got some other none blog-able thing i wannna tell you all.... our secret i got some answer to it alr...ask me when we meet..
kopi session someday :)
my bag broke... it died on sengkang.. no more sling... merely holding it... got to buy bag liao ..... wallet also..... handphone cover also if i stillwant to prevent scratches or in case i placed on wet surface accidentally, the handphone is protected..
so broke... yet holiday.. i can only work from mid may to mid jun
one month and 1 week again..die i hope i can get job...
"friends come and go.. whoever are fated to stay, will eventually, whoever cross your path only, will always remain to be bypasser no matter how hard you want them to stay"
initially.. decide to just off it ..
now.. i think i just have to learn to think before i write..
well bro..... this are things i do lately..
study... test... now i am on my last week of lecture... tburs officially ends the lecture... and 30 april is my exam.. last till one week later...
late jun i have reservist.. yes you are right... back to the greenery and haste... no more slow and lazy me while in there... only fast and furious.. else kenna pump lol...
i got some other none blog-able thing i wannna tell you all.... our secret i got some answer to it alr...ask me when we meet..
kopi session someday :)
my bag broke... it died on sengkang.. no more sling... merely holding it... got to buy bag liao ..... wallet also..... handphone cover also if i stillwant to prevent scratches or in case i placed on wet surface accidentally, the handphone is protected..
so broke... yet holiday.. i can only work from mid may to mid jun
one month and 1 week again..die i hope i can get job...
"friends come and go.. whoever are fated to stay, will eventually, whoever cross your path only, will always remain to be bypasser no matter how hard you want them to stay"
Friday, April 3, 2009
NINE WORDS WOMEN USE
(1) Fine:This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.
(2) Five Minutes:If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.
(3) Nothing:This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.
(4) Go Ahead:This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!
(5) Loud Sigh:This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to # 3 for the meaning of nothing.)
(6) That's Okay:This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.
(7) Thanks:A woman is thanking you, do not question, or faint. Just say you're welcome. (I want to add in a clause here - This is true, unless she says 'Thanks a lot' - that is PURE sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. DO NOT say 'you're welcome' . that will bring on a 'whatever').
(8) Whatever:Is a woman's way of saying FightYOU!
(9) Don't worry about it, I got it:Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the woman's response refer to # 3.
(2) Five Minutes:If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.
(3) Nothing:This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.
(4) Go Ahead:This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!
(5) Loud Sigh:This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to # 3 for the meaning of nothing.)
(6) That's Okay:This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.
(7) Thanks:A woman is thanking you, do not question, or faint. Just say you're welcome. (I want to add in a clause here - This is true, unless she says 'Thanks a lot' - that is PURE sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. DO NOT say 'you're welcome' . that will bring on a 'whatever').
(8) Whatever:Is a woman's way of saying FightYOU!
(9) Don't worry about it, I got it:Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the woman's response refer to # 3.
Friday, March 27, 2009
very true
well as i read some online sources... i'm happy..
some friends of mine finally realise how people ard my uni are so evil and how much i tried to battle this evil souls...
there are many yes.. i mean it..
only a handful are kind and good... seriously a handful...
good breed more goodness...evil breed more retribution.... just they wait...they deserve to get a tight slap ...
i wonder whoo are the people they are wary of.... in case i miss out...
am still sourcing throughout my schooling...hope people i know will not be hurt... for although i never talked much, deep inside i really wish we can be good friend..gut feeling says so..
some friends of mine finally realise how people ard my uni are so evil and how much i tried to battle this evil souls...
there are many yes.. i mean it..
only a handful are kind and good... seriously a handful...
good breed more goodness...evil breed more retribution.... just they wait...they deserve to get a tight slap ...
i wonder whoo are the people they are wary of.... in case i miss out...
am still sourcing throughout my schooling...hope people i know will not be hurt... for although i never talked much, deep inside i really wish we can be good friend..gut feeling says so..
Monday, March 23, 2009
sigh
some close frd of mine experience almost the same thing i did.. except it is a bit better, overall not very good anyway..
i bet he has to bear the error made and endure what the lack of effective communication has to come for him.
come to think of it.. its really a reminder... but i will continue to seek answer to tackle it... and hope to be able to share it with him in the near future on how to deal with it....
need more research and understanding... for sloving this issue is no longer a simple thing when society is so tainted with bad people ard...orst.. fake people who just loves to play..
way to go.... continue being normal..
i bet he has to bear the error made and endure what the lack of effective communication has to come for him.
come to think of it.. its really a reminder... but i will continue to seek answer to tackle it... and hope to be able to share it with him in the near future on how to deal with it....
need more research and understanding... for sloving this issue is no longer a simple thing when society is so tainted with bad people ard...orst.. fake people who just loves to play..
way to go.... continue being normal..
Friday, March 13, 2009
its complicated..
human are just so hard to understand..
woman especially..
when you think you know.. think again.. you might be wrong..
when you think you wrong.. think again.. you might be right ..
but when you ask, they willl give you a diffferent answer..
when you dun ask, they will eventually not tell you a lie..
when they lied, you nv know what happen that makes them lie
when you dun care why, somehow you find the answer someday..
yet sometimes when you dun search for it, it might never surface..
they get close to you for a reason you dunno..
yet when there are really sincere ones, you nv know they are...
geez.... human.... why cant they just be true to one another...
kampong life is so much better.. people tell things truthfully to others... care for one another.. bondage strong..everyday is pure and sincere....
ok another random thoughts...so random that i dunno what strucks me from thinking abt it..
woman especially..
when you think you know.. think again.. you might be wrong..
when you think you wrong.. think again.. you might be right ..
but when you ask, they willl give you a diffferent answer..
when you dun ask, they will eventually not tell you a lie..
when they lied, you nv know what happen that makes them lie
when you dun care why, somehow you find the answer someday..
yet sometimes when you dun search for it, it might never surface..
they get close to you for a reason you dunno..
yet when there are really sincere ones, you nv know they are...
geez.... human.... why cant they just be true to one another...
kampong life is so much better.. people tell things truthfully to others... care for one another.. bondage strong..everyday is pure and sincere....
ok another random thoughts...so random that i dunno what strucks me from thinking abt it..
Saturday, March 7, 2009
crazy
i think my body clock has been switched for a reason or two from dunno since when... i am awake at 4am lol
very awake.....
what shall i do? am gng to do some thing the next day... and still awake lol like not scare of insufficient sleep...
but anyway... was thinking abt studying... ater i do then i cfm it.. i always change my mind in a nick of the moment <--hope i use it right.. my english sucks actually..(which i dun have to say and it could be reflected in my blog anyway but well i just feel like writing it down who cares lol)
yawn i do not know how but many thing just comes... and they always at the time where you got others things... have to choose always.. but when you are bored to death, they just dun want to come.... how irritating... say for test... next week consecutively got one paper after the other with no gap between each paper..
and mcq to practice all adds up to ard 400
crazy then one week or so later assignment due date
i wish i was still as crazy as sem 1 to do everything ready beforehand... though that makes ppeople think this person no life lol... but well...i am lazy what to do... cant do it... even now i am blogging instead of studying..what a waste of time...
my progress for malay regretabbly stays haven gone much.. my knowledge on financial and business world is stilll like a kid.. know little..news i occasionally read...jap i nv do much abt it.. got plenty of books placed there nv touch..
geez.... and i dare to blog it out damn it... can i be just more hardworking? and nerdy ..... benefits will be seen in future but then as of current, will just be laughed at thats all...
geez.. you know from the way i geez means..... i am stilll lazy... if my dad knows what i been doing, and if his in singapore, i guess i dare not be so much of a slacker and waste time.. becos pressure lol... but i hate pressure.. lol
so how to get things done? hmmm..... when i feel the need to do it i will.... thus wahahahaa.... i should re-discipline mysef not to be so undisciplined again....
ok talking abt discipline, i should stop blogging alr... get the thing started....
ciaozz............ ^^
very awake.....
what shall i do? am gng to do some thing the next day... and still awake lol like not scare of insufficient sleep...
but anyway... was thinking abt studying... ater i do then i cfm it.. i always change my mind in a nick of the moment <--hope i use it right.. my english sucks actually..(which i dun have to say and it could be reflected in my blog anyway but well i just feel like writing it down who cares lol)
yawn i do not know how but many thing just comes... and they always at the time where you got others things... have to choose always.. but when you are bored to death, they just dun want to come.... how irritating... say for test... next week consecutively got one paper after the other with no gap between each paper..
and mcq to practice all adds up to ard 400
crazy then one week or so later assignment due date
i wish i was still as crazy as sem 1 to do everything ready beforehand... though that makes ppeople think this person no life lol... but well...i am lazy what to do... cant do it... even now i am blogging instead of studying..what a waste of time...
my progress for malay regretabbly stays haven gone much.. my knowledge on financial and business world is stilll like a kid.. know little..news i occasionally read...jap i nv do much abt it.. got plenty of books placed there nv touch..
geez.... and i dare to blog it out damn it... can i be just more hardworking? and nerdy ..... benefits will be seen in future but then as of current, will just be laughed at thats all...
geez.. you know from the way i geez means..... i am stilll lazy... if my dad knows what i been doing, and if his in singapore, i guess i dare not be so much of a slacker and waste time.. becos pressure lol... but i hate pressure.. lol
so how to get things done? hmmm..... when i feel the need to do it i will.... thus wahahahaa.... i should re-discipline mysef not to be so undisciplined again....
ok talking abt discipline, i should stop blogging alr... get the thing started....
ciaozz............ ^^
Monday, March 2, 2009
pondering
i got lots of things to think abt lately...
i am wondering what is happening to things ard me finally... apart than the usual thing i am thinking of..
a lot of things seems to be changing... and as usual all are hidden...
sometimes, i really hope i am brilliant in that area rather than such a dim witted me in that area...
nevertheless, those unsolved things i am still discovering the truth to it..and as usual me, i will not take action till i am sure of it..
those new things i am taking note of it...
home alone is never as good sometimes.. lots of things for you to think of and do ...
heavy.... my shoulder feels... so much things to think and do... study have yet to perfection...
besides, i will stop everything should it be clear to me....cos i need to know...
i am wondering what is happening to things ard me finally... apart than the usual thing i am thinking of..
a lot of things seems to be changing... and as usual all are hidden...
sometimes, i really hope i am brilliant in that area rather than such a dim witted me in that area...
nevertheless, those unsolved things i am still discovering the truth to it..and as usual me, i will not take action till i am sure of it..
those new things i am taking note of it...
home alone is never as good sometimes.. lots of things for you to think of and do ...
heavy.... my shoulder feels... so much things to think and do... study have yet to perfection...
besides, i will stop everything should it be clear to me....cos i need to know...
Sunday, March 1, 2009
wah
just watched "he's just not that into you"
amazingly, i found out things that others will project as you are not that into her..
and it feels like i did almost everything that is not that into.. when it was suppose to meant the opposite back then... anyway there should be a show to show people "maybe shes not that into you too"
lol ... i think i need to learn this things cos typical dumb me have no idea what it will signal to others..
maybe i am the exceptional one lol.... since i dunno the rules..and i only sincerely said things that really contains some elements of truth in it..
however, i think there are some things to let pple know that she is not that into you ... i kinda think maybe thats it.. so kinda fortunate i didn't do anything.. if preservering really counts like what they says.. well i dunno... at least if there is some result maybe i believe... only applies to people who might have chemical together bah i suppose.. but then never get together yet...
maybe can use some of the hint to help gauge if i am really into someone too.. using marrying as a perspective to gauge is rather good... will you marry the girl you date? if not, maybe you not that into her..
but i guess, worrying too much breed nth except unneccesary worries sometimes.. so.. there is no definite answer to it all.... wait for yours to come.. wish everyone luck in love...
and catch the show.. lol...
amazingly, i found out things that others will project as you are not that into her..
and it feels like i did almost everything that is not that into.. when it was suppose to meant the opposite back then... anyway there should be a show to show people "maybe shes not that into you too"
lol ... i think i need to learn this things cos typical dumb me have no idea what it will signal to others..
maybe i am the exceptional one lol.... since i dunno the rules..and i only sincerely said things that really contains some elements of truth in it..
however, i think there are some things to let pple know that she is not that into you ... i kinda think maybe thats it.. so kinda fortunate i didn't do anything.. if preservering really counts like what they says.. well i dunno... at least if there is some result maybe i believe... only applies to people who might have chemical together bah i suppose.. but then never get together yet...
maybe can use some of the hint to help gauge if i am really into someone too.. using marrying as a perspective to gauge is rather good... will you marry the girl you date? if not, maybe you not that into her..
but i guess, worrying too much breed nth except unneccesary worries sometimes.. so.. there is no definite answer to it all.... wait for yours to come.. wish everyone luck in love...
and catch the show.. lol...
Friday, February 27, 2009
oh crap
i just realise my tagboard is down... although its of no much use but then .... its still part of the blog so long i nv remove it.. gonnna "repair" it soon..
exhaustion is getting on me... i actually really enjoyed a good 2 min nap at sch... cant resist it.. too tired....which is kind of bad.... just a night of exercise in dancing tired me out till i cannot handle lol.. "although i still play game at night though lol :X"
tues is statistic test... dunno how the blue f____ hell to study it..shalll intense study only on mon i guess.. mcq qns i think can handle unless i have no idea how to use the formula to calculate...
some people nv come to sch today.. studying for test i guess... so weekend can enjoy still.. or simply, just lazy to come lol... sometimes gng to sch really need something to motivate you to go... somehow...
bball then night celebrate frd birthday.... wondering am i staying late or not... sunday go catch movie if possible.. then hop into study mood liao
monday whole day study... sleepy? die liao then lol...
ok time flies i gonna study now.. at least know when to use what formula... or else i be really gone case
exhaustion is getting on me... i actually really enjoyed a good 2 min nap at sch... cant resist it.. too tired....which is kind of bad.... just a night of exercise in dancing tired me out till i cannot handle lol.. "although i still play game at night though lol :X"
tues is statistic test... dunno how the blue f____ hell to study it..shalll intense study only on mon i guess.. mcq qns i think can handle unless i have no idea how to use the formula to calculate...
some people nv come to sch today.. studying for test i guess... so weekend can enjoy still.. or simply, just lazy to come lol... sometimes gng to sch really need something to motivate you to go... somehow...
bball then night celebrate frd birthday.... wondering am i staying late or not... sunday go catch movie if possible.. then hop into study mood liao
monday whole day study... sleepy? die liao then lol...
ok time flies i gonna study now.. at least know when to use what formula... or else i be really gone case
Thursday, February 26, 2009
awakening....
came back from hip hop....light heaRTED MOOD...
and when i read back my own post.. while now its calm and when i dun feel like thinking... actually i find that.. why do i insist to find out? i just cant give a damn reason for it..
but stilll i guess it wouldn't die till i really seriously from the bottom of my heart think that it really does not matter anymore..
and looking at my frustration... i am thinking... maybe anger have overcome me again and again... there are bound to be people like that so why make your life miserable? why the anger...
well i guess i am just not happy that i am not able to be the real me again and have to live in life where i created to be in the eye of others just becos of an experiment and a test and try out in doing the abnormal and risk it all...
even when those words that are meant to be kept untold i even try to write it out... sometimes, who do not have evil thoughts or self right thought? but those are just need to be kept to yourself seriously... so why express out when it does not really mean to be anything at all and just wild thinking?
i got to blame myself for that..... so sometimes, there are things that you better not try.... cos it just ruin your life... similiar to theft and murder....
life is a complicated thing...yet if you do everything in the right way and with everyone mentality being nice and right and not expect too much, it can just be simple and easy..
i sincerely hope i will cleanse all hatred and live life as happy as my secondary life again......where i find i am at my most discipline self and best attitude towards life..
and when i read back my own post.. while now its calm and when i dun feel like thinking... actually i find that.. why do i insist to find out? i just cant give a damn reason for it..
but stilll i guess it wouldn't die till i really seriously from the bottom of my heart think that it really does not matter anymore..
and looking at my frustration... i am thinking... maybe anger have overcome me again and again... there are bound to be people like that so why make your life miserable? why the anger...
well i guess i am just not happy that i am not able to be the real me again and have to live in life where i created to be in the eye of others just becos of an experiment and a test and try out in doing the abnormal and risk it all...
even when those words that are meant to be kept untold i even try to write it out... sometimes, who do not have evil thoughts or self right thought? but those are just need to be kept to yourself seriously... so why express out when it does not really mean to be anything at all and just wild thinking?
i got to blame myself for that..... so sometimes, there are things that you better not try.... cos it just ruin your life... similiar to theft and murder....
life is a complicated thing...yet if you do everything in the right way and with everyone mentality being nice and right and not expect too much, it can just be simple and easy..
i sincerely hope i will cleanse all hatred and live life as happy as my secondary life again......where i find i am at my most discipline self and best attitude towards life..
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
blog of frustration and unsolve things..
there is just that one thing that i dun understand..... making me like before....
and i think i over observe again.. since the lecture is so boring once again i cant help but do other things..
what is the meaning when others are looking at you.. there is no one general answer... many people look for different things.. many just wanna seee you being a fool again and happily joke ard with your "new" action.. some.. i dunno... some, is just looking when they saw you looking at him...some.. is merely staring blindly..
and one conclusion... when others have bad impression of you.. it is never going to change... people are rigid in their belief and believe in what they see only...
just do the norm and make them think nth changes bah...
since they will think "it cant be lets wait surely he will be back to square one, like a fool"
thats how bull shit people are nowadays... i regrettted wanting to know them before.. now i just cant ignore even when they are an ass...have to be "normal"
i sometimes want to leave my clinque and be alone... i am so scare that i will make them look bad ard with me, being bullshit by people who just got nth to do but to make fun of you and your frds..... people like to generalise them tgt with me.. nth good comes out from those shit..
i just cant handle child like them... i am wondering if i am really studying university... maturity just dun seem to be the word for them..i miss interacting with some of the mature people in the society.. though there are still crooks ard the world that did not grow up from the right mentality...
being not able to handle those shit is my lack of training.... i shall improve myself.. there will be more shit in society and if i cant turn the tide now, i cant turn the tide in future... see how i grow from "your" "guidance" shit people...
"if not now, when? if not you, who?"
"when you succeed, people follows"
"when you have yet attain success, people mock at your so call stupidity, when you shown results, people will just find excuses to look good for themselves for the mocking"
this 3 phrases is so true... the world nowadays is like that..for great people or say a successful entrepreneur,they will do thing right away as they understand if they drag on, nth will happen and if they dun do, no one will....
when they succeed, people will want to do the same business as they do
but in the process of attaining success, others will tend to mock at his idea and says it do not work.. when he finally succeeded, those who mock him before will have reasons and reasons to say to look good..
thats how the world do things.... making things that are simple made difficult by those people who talk alot to deter and does not want to do thing and change to make life better and just being a asshole for others..with tons of self right excuses to back themselves up..
i am just full of anger when it comes to talk abt crooks... they are just here to ruin my life with nothing better to do as they feel life in sch is just too boring and wanna spread tales to others without giving others a leeway to survive.. it was just an error made why must it be spread ard.. you know nth abt me idiot.. i am just so pissed off
and i think i over observe again.. since the lecture is so boring once again i cant help but do other things..
what is the meaning when others are looking at you.. there is no one general answer... many people look for different things.. many just wanna seee you being a fool again and happily joke ard with your "new" action.. some.. i dunno... some, is just looking when they saw you looking at him...some.. is merely staring blindly..
and one conclusion... when others have bad impression of you.. it is never going to change... people are rigid in their belief and believe in what they see only...
just do the norm and make them think nth changes bah...
since they will think "it cant be lets wait surely he will be back to square one, like a fool"
thats how bull shit people are nowadays... i regrettted wanting to know them before.. now i just cant ignore even when they are an ass...have to be "normal"
i sometimes want to leave my clinque and be alone... i am so scare that i will make them look bad ard with me, being bullshit by people who just got nth to do but to make fun of you and your frds..... people like to generalise them tgt with me.. nth good comes out from those shit..
i just cant handle child like them... i am wondering if i am really studying university... maturity just dun seem to be the word for them..i miss interacting with some of the mature people in the society.. though there are still crooks ard the world that did not grow up from the right mentality...
being not able to handle those shit is my lack of training.... i shall improve myself.. there will be more shit in society and if i cant turn the tide now, i cant turn the tide in future... see how i grow from "your" "guidance" shit people...
"if not now, when? if not you, who?"
"when you succeed, people follows"
"when you have yet attain success, people mock at your so call stupidity, when you shown results, people will just find excuses to look good for themselves for the mocking"
this 3 phrases is so true... the world nowadays is like that..for great people or say a successful entrepreneur,they will do thing right away as they understand if they drag on, nth will happen and if they dun do, no one will....
when they succeed, people will want to do the same business as they do
but in the process of attaining success, others will tend to mock at his idea and says it do not work.. when he finally succeeded, those who mock him before will have reasons and reasons to say to look good..
thats how the world do things.... making things that are simple made difficult by those people who talk alot to deter and does not want to do thing and change to make life better and just being a asshole for others..with tons of self right excuses to back themselves up..
i am just full of anger when it comes to talk abt crooks... they are just here to ruin my life with nothing better to do as they feel life in sch is just too boring and wanna spread tales to others without giving others a leeway to survive.. it was just an error made why must it be spread ard.. you know nth abt me idiot.. i am just so pissed off
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
deep thought
after moments of considering.... i guess being a self conscious me, i am just punishing myself for my wrongdoings..
you tend to be a shit when your life is in shit situation and people ard you just happen to treat you like shit.... you will be shitty in whatever you do without knowing... probably called fuk up,some people might say...you just dun feel like controlling and do whatever you feel like without bothering anything.. and ends up... i am sure the result is very bad... tarnishing bondage... killing impression...
if you dun trust me, wait till you experience it.... feel it yourself.. and dun forget you once said these words to people and now it might applies to you.. with you and your self right excuses to back up yourself when it happens...
egoistic... thats what is manipulating you...
what turns ard goes ard too.... retribution sure comes... and be sure.. why some of those crooks during your schooling years can turn out to be a nice guy in future.. and looking back, you just cant believe he is so bad then... even him might say his childish then...
there are many things i failed to understand... maybe, its not an area i should touch on until fate have decided that i should know... am not going to be reckless like before... sometimes, time is a good tools in your hand... it gives you preparation before you are ready so you will be able to handle things in future..probably, i am just not ready yet... although i think i am.. fate have decided that i need more time.. thus well should anyone tried to encourage me for some things and i did not do it, i'm sorry i am just listening to what is arranged for me... i'll wait....for the right time for the right thing in the right moment...when everything is right.. even my personality nurtured itself enough to allows it..
sit back and relax and enjoy the show.... its quite a nice phrase to me... sit back, relax and enjoy what life have to give you.... fast forward is not a good thing as you will regret that you never see the details along your way and forced yourself to see the result and making yourself not prepared when the times comes for you to reflect and tell others what you exppereince in your life.. those nitty gritty stuff..even if its written as in a compo, it lack substance as you only know the head and tail but not the body..
be forgiving and forgive others... another nice phrase... you want people to forgive you, you have to first be forgiving... but if you chose to forgive others and yet others chose not to forgive you, they will face their fare share of understanding in future.. life is fair at times..at times ok.. lol ... it make you see what you did to others in a period of time for you to reflect yourself... and maybe things you dun get to understand will be shown to you in a moment of time without you realising its coming...
life is about understanding things too anyway.... things that you do not understand do not mock others when you see it.. or else one day when you get to experience it, you make yourself feel shameful on what you did to others... as maybe you wil be doing the same thing withoout realising it..always be lenient and kind to others..you never know when you neeed themto be like that too.. even though you might be emotionally strong now and do not need it...
ok i guess i just written what i feel like saying at current since it just came... time for revision.. test tmr mcq though but well must do well......(i drop using hope to push myself to better limit you see.. at least for now..)
you tend to be a shit when your life is in shit situation and people ard you just happen to treat you like shit.... you will be shitty in whatever you do without knowing... probably called fuk up,some people might say...you just dun feel like controlling and do whatever you feel like without bothering anything.. and ends up... i am sure the result is very bad... tarnishing bondage... killing impression...
if you dun trust me, wait till you experience it.... feel it yourself.. and dun forget you once said these words to people and now it might applies to you.. with you and your self right excuses to back up yourself when it happens...
egoistic... thats what is manipulating you...
what turns ard goes ard too.... retribution sure comes... and be sure.. why some of those crooks during your schooling years can turn out to be a nice guy in future.. and looking back, you just cant believe he is so bad then... even him might say his childish then...
there are many things i failed to understand... maybe, its not an area i should touch on until fate have decided that i should know... am not going to be reckless like before... sometimes, time is a good tools in your hand... it gives you preparation before you are ready so you will be able to handle things in future..probably, i am just not ready yet... although i think i am.. fate have decided that i need more time.. thus well should anyone tried to encourage me for some things and i did not do it, i'm sorry i am just listening to what is arranged for me... i'll wait....for the right time for the right thing in the right moment...when everything is right.. even my personality nurtured itself enough to allows it..
sit back and relax and enjoy the show.... its quite a nice phrase to me... sit back, relax and enjoy what life have to give you.... fast forward is not a good thing as you will regret that you never see the details along your way and forced yourself to see the result and making yourself not prepared when the times comes for you to reflect and tell others what you exppereince in your life.. those nitty gritty stuff..even if its written as in a compo, it lack substance as you only know the head and tail but not the body..
be forgiving and forgive others... another nice phrase... you want people to forgive you, you have to first be forgiving... but if you chose to forgive others and yet others chose not to forgive you, they will face their fare share of understanding in future.. life is fair at times..at times ok.. lol ... it make you see what you did to others in a period of time for you to reflect yourself... and maybe things you dun get to understand will be shown to you in a moment of time without you realising its coming...
life is about understanding things too anyway.... things that you do not understand do not mock others when you see it.. or else one day when you get to experience it, you make yourself feel shameful on what you did to others... as maybe you wil be doing the same thing withoout realising it..always be lenient and kind to others..you never know when you neeed themto be like that too.. even though you might be emotionally strong now and do not need it...
ok i guess i just written what i feel like saying at current since it just came... time for revision.. test tmr mcq though but well must do well......(i drop using hope to push myself to better limit you see.. at least for now..)
Saturday, February 21, 2009
when i got time.. i have no mood to clear it...
now i have no time.. and i have mood to clear it..
wah the hell am i doing lol..
anyway... lately... catching up with sec frds.. nothing beats being with them and not forgetting my best frds, relatives and my click... i seems to have less flaws when i am with them as the mood of controlling and modest and everything seems to just come back.. lol.. i was very well disciplined before seriously... you be surprise.. i feel way lousier i am then i was before.. seriously...
anyway... been studying alone when i found no one to go out nor anyone calling me..
i do feel less lonely nowadays.... but being content is just not too good as there is bound to be better life i guess... but no lousier than now please haa...
i think i enjoy hip hop haa... i like those music maybe.. and those move can solo practice unlike salsa who need to partner with people and do wrong will make you pai sei lol..i like salsa too just that it is more pai sei nia.. lol..when you execute wrong..
but hip hop requires more endurance and speed and reflex.. i feel rather rigid sia lol..looking at myself executing the move seems like so weird lol.. thats what it is to be a beginner haa.. allegra the instructor dance really well.. seems young i wonder if she is a student too.. anyway everyone is wondering not only me haa..
that spells why i like to watch at concert for hip hop too... salsa too.. even people singing contest... i like music haa.. but am no master for it..
i am wondering what i should do after the 8 lesson.. if i really feel i can cope, should i go for audition on hip hop or salsa? or shouldi go learn more like jap and guitar.. i love to learn new things but i lack the peserverance for continuing lol.. there are some things i like and i continue though..
now i have no time.. and i have mood to clear it..
wah the hell am i doing lol..
anyway... lately... catching up with sec frds.. nothing beats being with them and not forgetting my best frds, relatives and my click... i seems to have less flaws when i am with them as the mood of controlling and modest and everything seems to just come back.. lol.. i was very well disciplined before seriously... you be surprise.. i feel way lousier i am then i was before.. seriously...
anyway... been studying alone when i found no one to go out nor anyone calling me..
i do feel less lonely nowadays.... but being content is just not too good as there is bound to be better life i guess... but no lousier than now please haa...
i think i enjoy hip hop haa... i like those music maybe.. and those move can solo practice unlike salsa who need to partner with people and do wrong will make you pai sei lol..i like salsa too just that it is more pai sei nia.. lol..when you execute wrong..
but hip hop requires more endurance and speed and reflex.. i feel rather rigid sia lol..looking at myself executing the move seems like so weird lol.. thats what it is to be a beginner haa.. allegra the instructor dance really well.. seems young i wonder if she is a student too.. anyway everyone is wondering not only me haa..
that spells why i like to watch at concert for hip hop too... salsa too.. even people singing contest... i like music haa.. but am no master for it..
i am wondering what i should do after the 8 lesson.. if i really feel i can cope, should i go for audition on hip hop or salsa? or shouldi go learn more like jap and guitar.. i love to learn new things but i lack the peserverance for continuing lol.. there are some things i like and i continue though..
Friday, February 13, 2009
valentine day quote...
"woman are all pretty in one way or another, but who will be the one that catchs your heart and make you really act regardless of rain or shine ?"
Thursday, February 12, 2009
4 min
in 4 min... it will be valentine day...
have you did what you want to achieve for a shot on this very day??
in this 21st century, it does not matter if guys date girls or girls date guys out alr... end of the day, just one thing is achieve that is, a chance on everlasting love...
good luck every brave heart and loving people... its finallly the day to express your love..
well i have no idea how i am going to spend the day.. got bball appt but dun feel like gng actually haa.. home as usual? or.. ya go hunt for some things..
anyway... wish i have some frds who wanna go out or go clubbing.. been feeling like gng lately just cant seem to have any frds who wanna go.. sibei sian...at least i know i have know quite many good and money saving soul who seldom go to this place as it is money consuming.. keke..but still having some to go is still well... colors adding to life i would say... not a need just my want haa..
alrite now is valentine day...(as i typed and 4 min passed.). heart beats of many starts to clock right now.. some might not be even well asleep just thinking abt that the moment for them have finally arrived..
well the reason why i am not asleep differs.. boring people like me who nv go pursue is just typically finished watching some movie called the tales of benjamin buttons... and currently not sleepy yet..
well its amazing how you can view life from a different life cycle.. old to young and back to infant..
and one thing is true... learn to cherish and do not live life with regrets...
have you did what you want to achieve for a shot on this very day??
in this 21st century, it does not matter if guys date girls or girls date guys out alr... end of the day, just one thing is achieve that is, a chance on everlasting love...
good luck every brave heart and loving people... its finallly the day to express your love..
well i have no idea how i am going to spend the day.. got bball appt but dun feel like gng actually haa.. home as usual? or.. ya go hunt for some things..
anyway... wish i have some frds who wanna go out or go clubbing.. been feeling like gng lately just cant seem to have any frds who wanna go.. sibei sian...at least i know i have know quite many good and money saving soul who seldom go to this place as it is money consuming.. keke..but still having some to go is still well... colors adding to life i would say... not a need just my want haa..
alrite now is valentine day...(as i typed and 4 min passed.). heart beats of many starts to clock right now.. some might not be even well asleep just thinking abt that the moment for them have finally arrived..
well the reason why i am not asleep differs.. boring people like me who nv go pursue is just typically finished watching some movie called the tales of benjamin buttons... and currently not sleepy yet..
well its amazing how you can view life from a different life cycle.. old to young and back to infant..
and one thing is true... learn to cherish and do not live life with regrets...
ops..
now its closed...
too bad...
but well... also good haaa.... no one to witness how dumb i dance lol...
and you know some things??... i might go out hunt on v day lol...
hunt for what??
:P secret..
definitely not girls..seriosuly no... just...
i be dumb if i tell you here....
:X
wahahaaa.........can you "smell" what i am hiding? waahahhah
anyway...
given the rate i am going.. i think i might love to gym more.. depends.. really too slacked liao.. many things cant handle due to lack of training.. just thoughts anyway.. thought is always not what me in person will perform at the end of the day.. unless you make me drunk waahaha.. or something to make me not think so much and just go with gut feeling... else.. too bad... regrets.. tear in the eyes...
and.... my option is still open.... so long the distance still remains like that..
am i too scary? lol... or did i give out a "dun talk to me" aura that everyone is not talking to me ,except my clinque lol..or everyone is merely maintaining their pride and want others to talk to them so as to not lose face??? i merely admit i might be a bit dao at times cos i dunno if they really treat me as frds or not... and i dun want to be the one smiling to them then kenna bo hui..like last time.. and dunno what pple is thinking la... sometimes, they like friendly.. other times, like bo hui... so qi guai... how can i not do likewise? lol.. just to be safe..
aiya.... i just wanna say.. i do treat all i know as frds la.. so long i smiled to you and attempted to talk to you before.. close case..
end of the day... i just hope life to be simple, nice, with frds ard and families, had frds hanging out session.. study and work hard tgt,learn things throughout the studying life,normally graduated, live life without "i thought you... so i" kinda crappy delaying frdship or anything kind of thing concrening human interaction.... and did whatever i want to do before i stepped into the cruel world of business with politics, struggles and r/s hurting issues....
pple always says why i say like my life so cham like that... they dun understand... it is that cham.. without gng through somethings, they will nv understand so i not even gng to explain unless they are someone who went through hardship, or maybe display a maturity level from the way they see things and handle it that probably let me feels he can understand this issue.... else its no use explaining when they can understand the skin of the problem but not the flesh of it..
well complain i may be.. but many things, actually i dun mind doing just love to complain only... and may it be fair to me when i did it as i need people to really think abt others and not take things for granted.. as usually people really do in one way or another..which will cause my reluctant to extend my help..
hmm why am i writing so much? i thought i wanna do a short post only haaa...and i think.. i should stop explaining myself... fact speaks for itself.. i think its call "res ipsa loquitor" if not wrong.. forgot..check it out "someday"<--meaning when i rmb and feels like checking it which means, may or may not do depending on the urgency i rate it in my brain.. lol .
okok stop liao... not nice anymore like essay liao... good night.. happy valentines day in....25 hours time..
too bad...
but well... also good haaa.... no one to witness how dumb i dance lol...
and you know some things??... i might go out hunt on v day lol...
hunt for what??
:P secret..
definitely not girls..seriosuly no... just...
i be dumb if i tell you here....
:X
wahahaaa.........can you "smell" what i am hiding? waahahhah
anyway...
given the rate i am going.. i think i might love to gym more.. depends.. really too slacked liao.. many things cant handle due to lack of training.. just thoughts anyway.. thought is always not what me in person will perform at the end of the day.. unless you make me drunk waahaha.. or something to make me not think so much and just go with gut feeling... else.. too bad... regrets.. tear in the eyes...
and.... my option is still open.... so long the distance still remains like that..
am i too scary? lol... or did i give out a "dun talk to me" aura that everyone is not talking to me ,except my clinque lol..or everyone is merely maintaining their pride and want others to talk to them so as to not lose face??? i merely admit i might be a bit dao at times cos i dunno if they really treat me as frds or not... and i dun want to be the one smiling to them then kenna bo hui..like last time.. and dunno what pple is thinking la... sometimes, they like friendly.. other times, like bo hui... so qi guai... how can i not do likewise? lol.. just to be safe..
aiya.... i just wanna say.. i do treat all i know as frds la.. so long i smiled to you and attempted to talk to you before.. close case..
end of the day... i just hope life to be simple, nice, with frds ard and families, had frds hanging out session.. study and work hard tgt,learn things throughout the studying life,normally graduated, live life without "i thought you... so i" kinda crappy delaying frdship or anything kind of thing concrening human interaction.... and did whatever i want to do before i stepped into the cruel world of business with politics, struggles and r/s hurting issues....
pple always says why i say like my life so cham like that... they dun understand... it is that cham.. without gng through somethings, they will nv understand so i not even gng to explain unless they are someone who went through hardship, or maybe display a maturity level from the way they see things and handle it that probably let me feels he can understand this issue.... else its no use explaining when they can understand the skin of the problem but not the flesh of it..
well complain i may be.. but many things, actually i dun mind doing just love to complain only... and may it be fair to me when i did it as i need people to really think abt others and not take things for granted.. as usually people really do in one way or another..which will cause my reluctant to extend my help..
hmm why am i writing so much? i thought i wanna do a short post only haaa...and i think.. i should stop explaining myself... fact speaks for itself.. i think its call "res ipsa loquitor" if not wrong.. forgot..check it out "someday"<--meaning when i rmb and feels like checking it which means, may or may not do depending on the urgency i rate it in my brain.. lol .
okok stop liao... not nice anymore like essay liao... good night.. happy valentines day in....25 hours time..
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
your only chance
come learn hip hop..thursday
6pm-7.30pm
sim ulu pandan campus...
before its too late...and saturday came.. then week pass.. time flies... graduated..
http://simdreamwerkz.blogspot.com/
hope got more friends learnng tgt.. keke..
6pm-7.30pm
sim ulu pandan campus...
before its too late...and saturday came.. then week pass.. time flies... graduated..
http://simdreamwerkz.blogspot.com/
hope got more friends learnng tgt.. keke..
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
just dance...
ok i did it... this time i be learning hip hop...thurs 7-8pm at ulu pandan..
think will go union after that and salsa lol..
dance dance dance...lets dance..
i live up to my name.. jack of all trades... but i dun like to use jack as my christian name haaa...
i be trying to improve... main priority is studies....rest learn for knowledge and colors to my sch life can liao waakaak..
i wonder if there will be a time where performance team for salsa comes directly after my training.. i'll be spotted by then lol..
if able to, salsa after that also not a bad idea.. lol..
whatever it is...... just dance....(not forgetting studies also lol and..... if still alright, dota after that lol...)
i think my planned timing in my head will be..
10-1pm sch, 2-3pm sleep 3.30-6pm try to read lol.. 7-8pm hip hop... if no union, 10-12am dota......lol
i do that everyday....
why i say try to read.. cos, i dun normally read so long or able to sit down and really study cos...... the sight of it makes me sleepy lol....
however i at least can make myself read 30 min...before my typical concentration runs out and do others things or sleep..
unlesss... a problem is there for me and i being typical dun wanna say die, will be awake and try to solve it...else.... no doubt... SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok whatever ....
whatever you do... whatever it is.. just remember...
just dance....????????....just dance...??????? (a song)
think will go union after that and salsa lol..
dance dance dance...lets dance..
i live up to my name.. jack of all trades... but i dun like to use jack as my christian name haaa...
i be trying to improve... main priority is studies....rest learn for knowledge and colors to my sch life can liao waakaak..
i wonder if there will be a time where performance team for salsa comes directly after my training.. i'll be spotted by then lol..
if able to, salsa after that also not a bad idea.. lol..
whatever it is...... just dance....(not forgetting studies also lol and..... if still alright, dota after that lol...)
i think my planned timing in my head will be..
10-1pm sch, 2-3pm sleep 3.30-6pm try to read lol.. 7-8pm hip hop... if no union, 10-12am dota......lol
i do that everyday....
why i say try to read.. cos, i dun normally read so long or able to sit down and really study cos...... the sight of it makes me sleepy lol....
however i at least can make myself read 30 min...before my typical concentration runs out and do others things or sleep..
unlesss... a problem is there for me and i being typical dun wanna say die, will be awake and try to solve it...else.... no doubt... SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok whatever ....
whatever you do... whatever it is.. just remember...
just dance....????????....just dance...??????? (a song)
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
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valentine soon
weeks have passed... its now once again valentine day... soon...
seen many short love stories.. i feel like creating some.. lol
as below..
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Valentine... a time where realisation of love strikes him...
a day where many snatched the opportunity for a date..
here he is..wanting give the love of his life everything..
Yet, reality is cruel... he could only wish from afar..
guts is his flaws... image is his concern..
others says, love conquer all odds...
yet being him, he is no conquerer when it comes to love..
Shine he may be in others..
little do anyone knows , there is one flaw in him.
excuses, reasons, all reasonable he found for explaination..
neatly covered up without a sign of imperfection..
One day... where he finally found courage, everything went wrong...
today where everythings right, he lost what he needed most...
he finally made up his mind....
May they find happinness...
he took the route.... of love is about giving....
wishing others happy..
and said
"should one day you need me again, i will always be there for you.."
====The End=====
and another one...
as follow
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"will you be my gf?"
he added at the middle of the heart in the normal looking little star he folded,
awaiting the girl to notice his hint as he tease and says in front of her
"lets play a game.. i bet you are not able to keep the little star i gave you in shape..doubt you are that careful to let it last.."
she replied " who says so... i dare you to dare me"
he added "ok, lets set a deadline, if it is still in shape when valentine day arrive, i give you a dinner treat and pay for your shopping that day... if you failed, you treat me for dinner that day"
she says "ok.. i make sure that it is in shape and i bring it everytime so you can see for yourself... get ready your money " she giggled
Days drew near... he checked on her.... no doubt it is untouched.. his heart sunk..
hoping she will "lose the bet"
the day arrived...
they met up..
there before him.... he saw the star...
it seems.. the secret will never be discovered.. and he knows it will be akward to tell her all these, wishing that she will notice it and give it a thought rather, than making it weird for them both..
things goes on as normal..he treated and paid for her shopping...
till before they parted,the girl suddenly said
"actually, i have lost the bet...and if you asked me, i might consider....."
then she added "as in treat you back.."
but he is puzzled.. and just said "nevermind its alright i'll treat you either way.. "
then she said "give you back the star, i guess it is of no use anymore, since our bet is over...help me throw away.."
and she passed him back the star before she left hastily,catching her incoming train...
while waiting for his train to arrive, he looked at the star..
puzzled at whether the words he wrote are still there, he opened up... and beside what he wrote, he saw a word.....
"yes"
=============The End================================
seen many short love stories.. i feel like creating some.. lol
as below..
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Valentine... a time where realisation of love strikes him...
a day where many snatched the opportunity for a date..
here he is..wanting give the love of his life everything..
Yet, reality is cruel... he could only wish from afar..
guts is his flaws... image is his concern..
others says, love conquer all odds...
yet being him, he is no conquerer when it comes to love..
Shine he may be in others..
little do anyone knows , there is one flaw in him.
excuses, reasons, all reasonable he found for explaination..
neatly covered up without a sign of imperfection..
One day... where he finally found courage, everything went wrong...
today where everythings right, he lost what he needed most...
he finally made up his mind....
May they find happinness...
he took the route.... of love is about giving....
wishing others happy..
and said
"should one day you need me again, i will always be there for you.."
====The End=====
and another one...
as follow
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"will you be my gf?"
he added at the middle of the heart in the normal looking little star he folded,
awaiting the girl to notice his hint as he tease and says in front of her
"lets play a game.. i bet you are not able to keep the little star i gave you in shape..doubt you are that careful to let it last.."
she replied " who says so... i dare you to dare me"
he added "ok, lets set a deadline, if it is still in shape when valentine day arrive, i give you a dinner treat and pay for your shopping that day... if you failed, you treat me for dinner that day"
she says "ok.. i make sure that it is in shape and i bring it everytime so you can see for yourself... get ready your money " she giggled
Days drew near... he checked on her.... no doubt it is untouched.. his heart sunk..
hoping she will "lose the bet"
the day arrived...
they met up..
there before him.... he saw the star...
it seems.. the secret will never be discovered.. and he knows it will be akward to tell her all these, wishing that she will notice it and give it a thought rather, than making it weird for them both..
things goes on as normal..he treated and paid for her shopping...
till before they parted,the girl suddenly said
"actually, i have lost the bet...and if you asked me, i might consider....."
then she added "as in treat you back.."
but he is puzzled.. and just said "nevermind its alright i'll treat you either way.. "
then she said "give you back the star, i guess it is of no use anymore, since our bet is over...help me throw away.."
and she passed him back the star before she left hastily,catching her incoming train...
while waiting for his train to arrive, he looked at the star..
puzzled at whether the words he wrote are still there, he opened up... and beside what he wrote, he saw a word.....
"yes"
=============The End================================
useless
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so useless..
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broke any heart?
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nth new
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take me away!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dun wanna stay that routine
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my heart is struggling
believing in my feelings or giving up
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so useless..
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broke any heart?
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nth new
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take me away!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dun wanna stay that routine
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my heart is struggling
believing in my feelings or giving up
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Monday, February 2, 2009
Thursday, January 29, 2009
day one.. gathering.. took pic for my cousins
one of my cousin sweet baby...must be a handsome one in future.. i call him the next Wu Zhun haaha..
then with thiis clothings, we are off to
clubbing... Aloha...
day 2 rest then day 3... hey hey we wear the same kid of clothing..
with that, we are going to malacca mahkota dream box for KTV .. supper is eaten after every outing... woo noo wonder i grew fatter... heck.. thats the way for chinese new year haaa...
there are lots of minor activities and things that i did not take photo of..like friends visiting, and visiting people..
more to go...
doubt i will put up..
thats all for my CNY blog posting..want more? i share with you if you are close to me... close people have the privilege keke..
bye and happy moo moo year ....
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
:)
tired, happy, awaiting more till sch starts..
lazy brb..
finding guts once again..
where inner might comes again one day will be the time i am reborn...lock me up no more....but learn and do it better this time..
keep improving , my motto
lazy brb..
finding guts once again..
where inner might comes again one day will be the time i am reborn...lock me up no more....but learn and do it better this time..
keep improving , my motto
Friday, January 23, 2009
happy chinese new year
hi yo all..
i am gng back to chinese new year on 24 jan noon
stayed home today so sian.. forcing myself to go out later without company i guess..
before i make m y way to smelll hometown and stress over there..
most likely 1 feb be back.. early return will be posted on msn..
kind of worried for myself.. the things required, i chose to do none..
anyway... may it cross me and get one soon..
bailamos is nice.. seen some frds ard.. support frds.. but well apart from that, i feel detached lol..
never social with anyone... i chose to not to... if my skill are better .. damn it.. maybe i consider less and go social.. never stayed for club in the end.. dun wanna spend to take cab home when i am not with them.. dun even know they stayed.. i guess, i dun belong to their group anymore..
life goes on.. i wish i have a personal tutor to teach salsa and a practice partner i like to dance with to enhance the move..
but inconsistent me is going to learn more thing.. being a typical jack of all trade master of none..
adios ....
i am gng back to chinese new year on 24 jan noon
stayed home today so sian.. forcing myself to go out later without company i guess..
before i make m y way to smelll hometown and stress over there..
most likely 1 feb be back.. early return will be posted on msn..
kind of worried for myself.. the things required, i chose to do none..
anyway... may it cross me and get one soon..
bailamos is nice.. seen some frds ard.. support frds.. but well apart from that, i feel detached lol..
never social with anyone... i chose to not to... if my skill are better .. damn it.. maybe i consider less and go social.. never stayed for club in the end.. dun wanna spend to take cab home when i am not with them.. dun even know they stayed.. i guess, i dun belong to their group anymore..
life goes on.. i wish i have a personal tutor to teach salsa and a practice partner i like to dance with to enhance the move..
but inconsistent me is going to learn more thing.. being a typical jack of all trade master of none..
adios ....
Thursday, January 22, 2009
bailamos
am going to bailamos at zouk soon.. i wonder whats up for me...dunno wanna stay and shun bian club or not..seee how...
very long nv club.. but also good.. club without others recognising your existence is indeed a waste.. now i realise why some people rather be bored at home then to go out with people they do not enjoy..
i am minimising my social right now.. down to the extend that should i think i am not in sync with them , i shall not do anything to even try.. you seen my aggressive type of behaviour, which was forced out by myself, now you shall see the usual me... this is the real me...wait for things to happen... maybe i try a little bit.. but thats the max i will do..
end of the day, just wish to live my life without regrets..
very long nv club.. but also good.. club without others recognising your existence is indeed a waste.. now i realise why some people rather be bored at home then to go out with people they do not enjoy..
i am minimising my social right now.. down to the extend that should i think i am not in sync with them , i shall not do anything to even try.. you seen my aggressive type of behaviour, which was forced out by myself, now you shall see the usual me... this is the real me...wait for things to happen... maybe i try a little bit.. but thats the max i will do..
end of the day, just wish to live my life without regrets..
Monday, January 19, 2009
this is a confession...
not your normal love confession but self upgrading confession.. lol..
somehow i think.. all i need is a company to trigger my potential to max..be it study, working, self enhancing... i push myself more when challenged and doing things together..
my short term plan.. read up textbook module by module... lesser concentration on completing fortune as compared to my studies for a better cert, improve on things that people look down on me for..
i must help myself.. why i blog? make it known.. so there is no backing out already...
money wise, not going to care till holiday comes to use the sch time to learn whatever i feel like learning.. so long its a reading thing or sports thing..hip hop next... buck up salsa... better interaction with people for socialising skills..
whatever and anything...
be less lazy and try to organise things... maybe for uni frds now.. cannot keep letting people organise... must take some initiative.. and of cos, while outside must improve on those i am dim witted about that makes people think how come i like that lol..
money... once i have enough to sustain i will organise... right now, just got to keep saving and use minimum till near holiday then i can loosen my restriction on it and spend for good cause.. not on dressing anymore.. i guess i had enough since i spent last sem for it..must know how to be satisfied..
till here first..
somehow i think.. all i need is a company to trigger my potential to max..be it study, working, self enhancing... i push myself more when challenged and doing things together..
my short term plan.. read up textbook module by module... lesser concentration on completing fortune as compared to my studies for a better cert, improve on things that people look down on me for..
i must help myself.. why i blog? make it known.. so there is no backing out already...
money wise, not going to care till holiday comes to use the sch time to learn whatever i feel like learning.. so long its a reading thing or sports thing..hip hop next... buck up salsa... better interaction with people for socialising skills..
whatever and anything...
be less lazy and try to organise things... maybe for uni frds now.. cannot keep letting people organise... must take some initiative.. and of cos, while outside must improve on those i am dim witted about that makes people think how come i like that lol..
money... once i have enough to sustain i will organise... right now, just got to keep saving and use minimum till near holiday then i can loosen my restriction on it and spend for good cause.. not on dressing anymore.. i guess i had enough since i spent last sem for it..must know how to be satisfied..
till here first..
to my best frds..
yo you know what.. i FINALLY saw catherine at our school... yes... she is finally spotted...
anyway i took pic with her.. ages since we took one.. knowing each other for so long yet seldom have the time to meet up with this busy queen bee of ours..
perfume spray is something she sold and i conveniently bought one... why? cos i have no perfume.. lol..and support our best frds organization people is something i will consider less ... thanks to my daily saving habit<--some says 吝啬。。i am able to spend once on it.. wait till i have money damn it lol..
people who dun mind me daily, will always have the best from me in the end... i assure..
as for those who demand this and that and judge me from surface, i'm sorry i will just try to project as bad as you think i am...cos i will never show you my good...
everything i do takes time... my giving also takes time.. as long as years as you can see...
well lets wish everyone will be happy in their own world... love interest and friends...
anyway i took pic with her.. ages since we took one.. knowing each other for so long yet seldom have the time to meet up with this busy queen bee of ours..
perfume spray is something she sold and i conveniently bought one... why? cos i have no perfume.. lol..and support our best frds organization people is something i will consider less ... thanks to my daily saving habit<--some says 吝啬。。i am able to spend once on it.. wait till i have money damn it lol..
people who dun mind me daily, will always have the best from me in the end... i assure..
as for those who demand this and that and judge me from surface, i'm sorry i will just try to project as bad as you think i am...cos i will never show you my good...
everything i do takes time... my giving also takes time.. as long as years as you can see...
well lets wish everyone will be happy in their own world... love interest and friends...
Sunday, January 18, 2009
life
in my life i am always forced to prove things..
this time round.. i gotta prove i am good... other people and me are all just the same and i am not as bad as you think i am..
time changes a lot of things... it do and will and it allready did..just a matter of choices and decision and pity...
take it as a stage of enhancing to be a all rounder in all aspect.. i just merely lack experience in this area to make things so cock up..
being an all rounder is not easy after all..jack of all trades... with determination and consistentcy in improving it, will become to achieve near master of all someday..or even if not master fully, at least became and expperienced person in all aspects and able to handle anything that comes..
COME WHAT MAY!!!! this is my resolution this year.. not going to set any else... none is achievable without a will.. i have no will to achieve one particular as i know i like to improve and achieve bit here and there, so long every year i am learning and getting better than the year before will do...
so JUST BRING IT!!!! no one will fail forever...
this time round.. i gotta prove i am good... other people and me are all just the same and i am not as bad as you think i am..
time changes a lot of things... it do and will and it allready did..just a matter of choices and decision and pity...
take it as a stage of enhancing to be a all rounder in all aspect.. i just merely lack experience in this area to make things so cock up..
being an all rounder is not easy after all..jack of all trades... with determination and consistentcy in improving it, will become to achieve near master of all someday..or even if not master fully, at least became and expperienced person in all aspects and able to handle anything that comes..
COME WHAT MAY!!!! this is my resolution this year.. not going to set any else... none is achievable without a will.. i have no will to achieve one particular as i know i like to improve and achieve bit here and there, so long every year i am learning and getting better than the year before will do...
so JUST BRING IT!!!! no one will fail forever...
nth much
saturday just schooling, sing ktv with uni frds .. thought of calling more but i gave up again as i too last minute thought of calling people..
well bugis topone s the place..
sang for long long hours till evening went shaw and sibway till i got a sms.. and went to dhoby ghaut for coffee... :)
tired out one full day... today family day.. all are back.. sleep and family things all the way..
i wonder whats up next for me in my life.. :)
more good things please.. (praying)
.......end of episode 1 ......... [WTH!!!!??]
well bugis topone s the place..
sang for long long hours till evening went shaw and sibway till i got a sms.. and went to dhoby ghaut for coffee... :)
tired out one full day... today family day.. all are back.. sleep and family things all the way..
i wonder whats up next for me in my life.. :)
more good things please.. (praying)
.......end of episode 1 ......... [WTH!!!!??]
Thursday, January 15, 2009
??
somethings happening ard me???
somehow, i just dun understand..
what is going on???
is it a good thing or bad thing??
is there anything i fail to get although it might be alr very obvious?
lastly... am i thinking too much again??
haa.. i dunno..
learn from the past, i just leave this thoughts untouched and unsolved..
dun wanna think too much..
not going to do anything..
wait for answer bah..
somehow, i just dun understand..
what is going on???
is it a good thing or bad thing??
is there anything i fail to get although it might be alr very obvious?
lastly... am i thinking too much again??
haa.. i dunno..
learn from the past, i just leave this thoughts untouched and unsolved..
dun wanna think too much..
not going to do anything..
wait for answer bah..
Monday, January 12, 2009
found this page.. no idea if its true.. post for own review in future lol..
Seduction of the Scorpio Man
As a fixed water sign, Scorpio is very determined. He has quite some courage and inner strength. Jealousy is part of him.
Seduce Scorpio by being sexy and seductive. However, don't forget that Scorpio is a water sign, sensitive and sentimental that is. So, be subtle. And be patient. Scorpios may be quite hesitant when it comes to affairs of the heart. But be patient AND confident.
His physical desires are insatiable. If you want to seduce Scorpio you will have to surrender...
As a fixed water sign, Scorpio is very determined. He has quite some courage and inner strength. Jealousy is part of him.
Seduce Scorpio by being sexy and seductive. However, don't forget that Scorpio is a water sign, sensitive and sentimental that is. So, be subtle. And be patient. Scorpios may be quite hesitant when it comes to affairs of the heart. But be patient AND confident.
His physical desires are insatiable. If you want to seduce Scorpio you will have to surrender...
Sunday, January 11, 2009
look what we have here...
i am reluctant to post out some thus
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the above are emo wordings..
i like chi bi... missed out 20 min though.. not my fault..but its ok..
the brilliant plot and plans nv fails to excites me.. tactic.. knowledge rules over brute force YEAH!!!!! i love this war tactical chinese show yeah!!!!! besides comical one...
people will surely say why got such good "opportunity" dun want to make use of it...
they dun understand.. its not simple.. haa... i guess, people got bf liao... as they said, time never waits...so i am gng to be scolded stupid for a period of time already haa.. what to do.. i am simply dim witted..I AM ALWAYS LIKE THAT..
got to accept.. ha..
fuk up persistent and no action personality..
lets change the motion..
i realise i have nothing to blog liao... -_-""
lets end with a joke..
an Onion a day keeps the sprits away...
an Apple a day keeps the doctor away..
a Mango a day??
keeps your pocket money away..
(isn't it, who says i am talking abt fruits here.. think harder if you are not on the right track..keke..)
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the above are emo wordings..
i like chi bi... missed out 20 min though.. not my fault..but its ok..
the brilliant plot and plans nv fails to excites me.. tactic.. knowledge rules over brute force YEAH!!!!! i love this war tactical chinese show yeah!!!!! besides comical one...
people will surely say why got such good "opportunity" dun want to make use of it...
they dun understand.. its not simple.. haa... i guess, people got bf liao... as they said, time never waits...so i am gng to be scolded stupid for a period of time already haa.. what to do.. i am simply dim witted..I AM ALWAYS LIKE THAT..
got to accept.. ha..
fuk up persistent and no action personality..
lets change the motion..
i realise i have nothing to blog liao... -_-""
lets end with a joke..
an Onion a day keeps the sprits away...
an Apple a day keeps the doctor away..
a Mango a day??
keeps your pocket money away..
(isn't it, who says i am talking abt fruits here.. think harder if you are not on the right track..keke..)
Thursday, January 8, 2009
08012009
howdy...... i bless you with warm and comfort day all week ....
yup today i am here... at my blog... doing what? updating of cos.... you smarty might alr know this
as at today, fourth day of school i am totally exhausted...
exhaustion comes with something else..... the need to seek fun..
yup i am damn bored.. but what to do... i found my ways to kill it eventually..
not interesting to say though .. shall move on..
chi bi the second episode is coming OUT!!! finally.. been wanting to watch it.. but it seems this time round, i have no company.. they are busy... sigh..
guess i have only my book to turn to... maybe it is a time for me to enhance my knowledge.. but grrrrr.............................................................. i need motivation!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dampen way too much by thing happening ard ........
mum is gonna be away... this time round i am alone at home again.... i have all the time i want and peace to do studying and reading and whatever i want....
but......... hehe if you know what it means :P
i wonder if there will be anything up this weekend...
now i have no more cca... completed salsa.. can pursue for more cos only intermediate level...
damn boring shit... gonna consider joining one cca soon...
i got piano, guitar, hip hop so far on my want to learn list...for fun maybe singing, for some free ktv session or lobang lol...
language includes malay, japanese... still persist.. still learning bit by bit.... my brain and concentration level is not that good to not exhaust my time and learn it all in a short time... too bad..
motivation level aside too that is lol...
1 1/2 yrs... left... i have to do what i feel like to do... cos i can picture what my life after schooling life is...
with working only full time, it be work, off, work off... tired, home, tv,sleep...
with gng back to help my dad, its even worse......
learn malay, learn legal documents and procedures, drive, manage cars and petrol, budget, rest day also equal to working days, socialise ard, coffee, smile, handle tough customer,learn machines and its uses and specification, all sub business handling eventually as times goes by i guess, handle fraud and cheat, handle fake faces all around, worst of all.. handle my dad temper lol...in short... i have to be what people call "wen wu shuang quan" and its tiring....
but i dunno what will my dad put me specifically in charge of just as yet.. but eventually, if none of my bro gonna take up, he willl have me to in charge and help out only loh.. . that is if i were to go back help out and if i am good enough first.... keke... not sure if i really need to go back or not just as yet..or rather, want to or not lol... still choosing..
what i got to do now... is keep improving myself, try out things for an experience in future to prepare myself for the future...
did and tested, some things just wouldn't work out...tried and gave up, some things just couldn't change....
i gonna suffer in future... thats the prediction as per current performance.....
as worried as i can get, i cant help it but to maximise my time as a student to seek fun while i can..... making my parents worried about my maturity that is lol....
shhsh.......
lol..
alright... be gone... shoosh...... do some reading bah... bb
yup today i am here... at my blog... doing what? updating of cos.... you smarty might alr know this
as at today, fourth day of school i am totally exhausted...
exhaustion comes with something else..... the need to seek fun..
yup i am damn bored.. but what to do... i found my ways to kill it eventually..
not interesting to say though .. shall move on..
chi bi the second episode is coming OUT!!! finally.. been wanting to watch it.. but it seems this time round, i have no company.. they are busy... sigh..
guess i have only my book to turn to... maybe it is a time for me to enhance my knowledge.. but grrrrr.............................................................. i need motivation!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dampen way too much by thing happening ard ........
mum is gonna be away... this time round i am alone at home again.... i have all the time i want and peace to do studying and reading and whatever i want....
but......... hehe if you know what it means :P
i wonder if there will be anything up this weekend...
now i have no more cca... completed salsa.. can pursue for more cos only intermediate level...
damn boring shit... gonna consider joining one cca soon...
i got piano, guitar, hip hop so far on my want to learn list...for fun maybe singing, for some free ktv session or lobang lol...
language includes malay, japanese... still persist.. still learning bit by bit.... my brain and concentration level is not that good to not exhaust my time and learn it all in a short time... too bad..
motivation level aside too that is lol...
1 1/2 yrs... left... i have to do what i feel like to do... cos i can picture what my life after schooling life is...
with working only full time, it be work, off, work off... tired, home, tv,sleep...
with gng back to help my dad, its even worse......
learn malay, learn legal documents and procedures, drive, manage cars and petrol, budget, rest day also equal to working days, socialise ard, coffee, smile, handle tough customer,learn machines and its uses and specification, all sub business handling eventually as times goes by i guess, handle fraud and cheat, handle fake faces all around, worst of all.. handle my dad temper lol...in short... i have to be what people call "wen wu shuang quan" and its tiring....
but i dunno what will my dad put me specifically in charge of just as yet.. but eventually, if none of my bro gonna take up, he willl have me to in charge and help out only loh.. . that is if i were to go back help out and if i am good enough first.... keke... not sure if i really need to go back or not just as yet..or rather, want to or not lol... still choosing..
what i got to do now... is keep improving myself, try out things for an experience in future to prepare myself for the future...
did and tested, some things just wouldn't work out...tried and gave up, some things just couldn't change....
i gonna suffer in future... thats the prediction as per current performance.....
as worried as i can get, i cant help it but to maximise my time as a student to seek fun while i can..... making my parents worried about my maturity that is lol....
shhsh.......
lol..
alright... be gone... shoosh...... do some reading bah.
Friday, January 2, 2009
new year 2009 commenced.....2nd day
hi hi.. i am late it seems but anyway.... new year, new beginning, new........ everything looks new since its alr new year....
so how have you been last year?
what do you want to do this year??
any regret that you cannot complete anything last year and want to do it this year???
its time... ox year will give you an ox boost strength to do whatever you like... go ahead... muackz.. <--hehe just trying too be funny :P
lets do a recap.....
start the year with many storms.... end the year with peace.... frdship in and out..
some stays.... luckily, some, just distant...
nv wish to distant anyone but well one cant do all.... pple do get a bit lazy to meet pple at times..
worst spending for the year, fun is a lot but money coming in suffered...
sad to say, i never accomplish some thing well enough... still gng to be my resolution this year..
lack of fuel to carry it all out la.... simply lazy to budge can? lol i think i should make kicking the lazy bug one of my resolution this year.. i can really do alot if i am not lazy really...
i've completed my salsa ..... can now try hip hop heh... but then got time must perfect and rmb the move else it be a waste to learn salsa liao...
well its now 2009!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Rejoice.......!!!!!!!!!
whats is ahead of me?
what new frds or strengthning of bonding to known frds will be there for me?
what will my results be... ?
what new theory in life will i experienced and understands?
how much challenges i must face again in this year?
am i able to do what i really want and perfect it?
and most impt of all...
will i drop my lazy bug and really do what i intended and thought of doing all along?
will i (unspoken hidden resolutions)
hehe....
cant say everything out later like bdae wish , dun come true... so i kept some. or at least can accomplish one is enough since all are impt..
HAVE A GREAT YEAR AHEAD!!!!!!!!!!
WABAFAT!!!!!<--from pokemon lol
so how have you been last year?
what do you want to do this year??
any regret that you cannot complete anything last year and want to do it this year???
its time... ox year will give you an ox boost strength to do whatever you like... go ahead... muackz.. <--hehe just trying too be funny :P
lets do a recap.....
start the year with many storms.... end the year with peace.... frdship in and out..
some stays.... luckily, some, just distant...
nv wish to distant anyone but well one cant do all.... pple do get a bit lazy to meet pple at times..
worst spending for the year, fun is a lot but money coming in suffered...
sad to say, i never accomplish some thing well enough... still gng to be my resolution this year..
lack of fuel to carry it all out la.... simply lazy to budge can? lol i think i should make kicking the lazy bug one of my resolution this year.. i can really do alot if i am not lazy really...
i've completed my salsa ..... can now try hip hop heh... but then got time must perfect and rmb the move else it be a waste to learn salsa liao...
well its now 2009!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Rejoice.......!!!!!!!!!
whats is ahead of me?
what new frds or strengthning of bonding to known frds will be there for me?
what will my results be... ?
what new theory in life will i experienced and understands?
how much challenges i must face again in this year?
am i able to do what i really want and perfect it?
and most impt of all...
will i drop my lazy bug and really do what i intended and thought of doing all along?
will i (unspoken hidden resolutions)
hehe....
cant say everything out later like bdae wish , dun come true... so i kept some. or at least can accomplish one is enough since all are impt..
HAVE A GREAT YEAR AHEAD!!!!!!!!!!
WABAFAT!!!!!<--from pokemon lol
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