you know what?

i was reading my last blog.. slapped myself a little again...

my mum's back... now i appreciate it.... with someone ard and with no one ard is simply different..

althoug you may stick to your room as usual, theatmosphere and feeling is simmply different..

i actually feel like staying home and have the mood to watch movie and drama at home...things that never will occur to me when no one is home..

i ever have this thought on what will i be if i had never commit such a grave error back then.... will life be much better than now..

probably without a bad name.. things will go on in a easier mode.....i just wish i never put my clinque in the position of being classified as weirdo and broke their possibility of getting to know friends due to me..

still..... i got myself to repair out of the bad name.. maybe.. mistakes makes me grow up.. i needed it to improve.. which i said before.. i want to be better and better yet i cant seem to find what to be better on and this mistake just makes me realised things.. revealed me to many if not, all the things i have to become better on...

and for once.. i started to feel like not knowing hhaa...well well... for the better me.....lets strive...

BE THE BEST OUT OF THE WORLD...... probably this is what it takes to really put my dreams into practice and finally be what i always wanted to achieve.. starting from personality that will eventually lead to my destination...if i were to make what i thinnk real.... i got THAT MUCH to learn before i really excel to be what i thiink i can be......

and laziness is sure the top of the list...combined with some personality changes for a start...

WAY TO GO....<-- sounnds a long way and demoralising so i change

ITS NOT GONNA BE LONG..GOGOGO!!!!!

^^ i knoow self hynotised dun work nor writing down so TIMe.. thats all i need... gotta prove it.... yeah!!! <-- i always hate to admit but this time i have to agree.... my elder brother was right.. i have to prove things.. and my eldest was right too... put words into action and stop procastinating.. i have great siblings and parents... i regretted putting their upbringing to a doubt by my foolish conduct...

r/s... although people says first time sure fail so go get experience.. but i dun like experience.. this is no play thing thoough it is needed to know what right to do and whats not in being tgt with someone..i only hope.. if it comes it will stay.. lets start first in making myself better...others... will makes its way and find a chapter in my life someday..