blog of frustration and unsolve things..

there is just that one thing that i dun understand..... making me like before....
and i think i over observe again.. since the lecture is so boring once again i cant help but do other things..

what is the meaning when others are looking at you.. there is no one general answer... many people look for different things.. many just wanna seee you being a fool again and happily joke ard with your "new" action.. some.. i dunno... some, is just looking when they saw you looking at him...some.. is merely staring blindly..

and one conclusion... when others have bad impression of you.. it is never going to change... people are rigid in their belief and believe in what they see only...

just do the norm and make them think nth changes bah...

since they will think "it cant be lets wait surely he will be back to square one, like a fool"

thats how bull shit people are nowadays... i regrettted wanting to know them before.. now i just cant ignore even when they are an ass...have to be "normal"

i sometimes want to leave my clinque and be alone... i am so scare that i will make them look bad ard with me, being bullshit by people who just got nth to do but to make fun of you and your frds..... people like to generalise them tgt with me.. nth good comes out from those shit..

i just cant handle child like them... i am wondering if i am really studying university... maturity just dun seem to be the word for them..i miss interacting with some of the mature people in the society.. though there are still crooks ard the world that did not grow up from the right mentality...

being not able to handle those shit is my lack of training.... i shall improve myself.. there will be more shit in society and if i cant turn the tide now, i cant turn the tide in future... see how i grow from "your" "guidance" shit people...

"if not now, when? if not you, who?"
"when you succeed, people follows"
"when you have yet attain success, people mock at your so call stupidity, when you shown results, people will just find excuses to look good for themselves for the mocking"

this 3 phrases is so true... the world nowadays is like that..for great people or say a successful entrepreneur,they will do thing right away as they understand if they drag on, nth will happen and if they dun do, no one will....

when they succeed, people will want to do the same business as they do

but in the process of attaining success, others will tend to mock at his idea and says it do not work.. when he finally succeeded, those who mock him before will have reasons and reasons to say to look good..

thats how the world do things.... making things that are simple made difficult by those people who talk alot to deter and does not want to do thing and change to make life better and just being a asshole for others..with tons of self right excuses to back themselves up..

i am just full of anger when it comes to talk abt crooks... they are just here to ruin my life with nothing better to do as they feel life in sch is just too boring and wanna spread tales to others without giving others a leeway to survive.. it was just an error made why must it be spread ard.. you know nth abt me idiot.. i am just so pissed off