will anyone know why i am relectant to get a gf? wil anyponeknow why i am so defensive? will anyone knows why i lost my confidence although i have a brave heart? will anyone knows why i lost my attitude to strive? will anyone knows why i love to go out althopugh i desire to be a homely person? alll these, is i do not have a cosy home with members good enough to let me be what i am suppose to be. i stray from what i am suppose to be.

memories

after watching the show "you are an apple in my eyes"
brings back memories.

i thought of Wenqin, thats my first flash. then after i thought of my sec sch crush ziping.

but if say everyone aside and there is a chance to really understand each other, one to one, will it be any better?

well sometimes not knowing the answer may be good, yet it may be bad too. anyway, what past is past. god knows what the future brings, fate will then decide.

somehow, i do not know why, i really like those people yet the more i like, the tendency i do opposite like instead of getting close, i will avoid. instead of being good, i behave badly lost control. least i understand myself more now.

not that i like to be single, i just couldn't find the one i really like yet. i am awaiting, not going to take anyone easily, and remain single till i found the one.