will anyone know why i am relectant to get a gf? wil anyponeknow why i am so defensive? will anyone knows why i lost my confidence although i have a brave heart? will anyone knows why i lost my attitude to strive? will anyone knows why i love to go out althopugh i desire to be a homely person? alll these, is i do not have a cosy home with members good enough to let me be what i am suppose to be. i stray from what i am suppose to be.