in response to previous blog

i realised its just another of my inadequate in improving myself that lead to all these... please improve..



maturity is more than what one can think of.... am slapped in the face by my own consciouness and realised the many parts i have to be better on.... shouldn't have gave myself a break and break free from trying to work on myself way back.. making me so complacent on myself and now is getting bad to worse it seems..



gasping for air... lol... for being in a family that demand you to be better than others even if those who taught you thing might not be able to attain perfection themselves, learning is certain.. but convincing yourself to listen and attain perfection is really difficult... but well... if you think of it in a good way, you're benefitting from it all isn't it..



well again.. talk is cheap.. whether i am able to attained everything from all those that were taught will only surface in future..



many things taught to me i refuse.. yes refuse to learn.. but a portion of it have to be used appropriately for sometimes its needed.. that.. i dunno what to do abt it..



first impression... it was talked abt slightly today.. i took a bit of times and think abt it.. very true.. i hated that i created a bad first impression... it is.. really, a lethal weapon indeed... i took my time and effort to create good first impression before and nth happens.. the only time i decide to give it a miss, i had sufferring that is way too much to handle... each person, every wording that my best friends, families and those who cares surfaced..... i hated i give way to laziness to maintain my image.. gave chance for people to talked abt me..... gave myself a chance to exposed to the unforeseen.... but there are some things that might need to continue till i find an answer to it... bear with it... hope its worthwhile in future.. for experience is invaluable...



aiya.. shall not say too much.. prove things with action first..

will refer back here for self reviewing....