i am living in comfty... infiltrate my world please..
hahaha..
i must be crazy haha..
or maybe i shall launch an attack soon again.. since ancient it is always our duty to do the bad thing and see if we are accepted ahahha
no peace... roar...
ok enough of crap.. i'm waiting for chalet on friday..saturday jurong point got jolin tsai coming wow.. 1pm.. feel like rush back and see haha..
there after... training for work and actual work.. 4 days salary only
and.. its waiting for ICT..
i wonder if the pub job can accept or not.. then next time go there work for money.. haa near only anyway..
citibank i guess is goner.. so long alr no news
gv also.. maybe if i want i got schedule now can try again.. sch days go gv work.. grr... revise the schedule and consider reapply see how..
i need money.. i wanna go oversea. hahaha
and i going to buy all the stuff lacking for me to groom and cure whatever i wanted to...
now that i decided to slash some contact off.. i should have more money for myself.. damn spend till i wasted money.. those people merely is not worth it to spend on them i realise..
to think i treat them thinking they are ok... they still backstab behind my back...
and itch again.. wanna write something but then... i guess not... orevious post stir up a bit of crooks in talking again i guess.. lets not get them busy...i write at other blog for my inspiration.. maybe can ask my writer friend to see if he wanna use haha...
ciaoz.. haha
you know i love you..
gossip boy olol
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Monday, May 25, 2009
21 may 2009.. i willl rmb this day
what a day..full of surprises and happy day for me..
sent bro's maid off to airport today.. and i activate my..."since i am out why not go out for a while" mindset haaa...
then on the way.. i choose between bugis and orchard...since i went city hall before alr..
and guess what.. i am at orchard..
and suddenly i thought of using the expiring ticket i held...
and wowla... i ended up catchoing night at the museum 2 haha..
wow... night at the museum 2 is nice .... those who watched night at the museum will appreciate and understand better for this.. i made a right choice watching it today.. i feel so glad ^^ no more dragging till everyone is free and watch it on the dot on the day it is released haha.. i'm bored anyway...
its hilarious and adventurious.. nice..
the love part.. is just something i doubt any girls nowadays will do..
the cupid.. is just so nice.. songs ^^ love it..
monkey... now with 2.. is just as witty and cutey as ever haa.. irritating some said..
with the company ard.. i guess they enjoyed the show as much as i do too... i wish they had a good night..smilng with happiness sweetly into the dream and dreamnt of the show haaa... probably the love part.. where it could not really happpen in reality...
and whats next.... interesting... i went to..................
Jurong....................................................
which means...
HOME SWEET HOME...
keke..
sent bro's maid off to airport today.. and i activate my..."since i am out why not go out for a while" mindset haaa...
then on the way.. i choose between bugis and orchard...since i went city hall before alr..
and guess what.. i am at orchard..
and suddenly i thought of using the expiring ticket i held...
and wowla... i ended up catchoing night at the museum 2 haha..
wow... night at the museum 2 is nice .... those who watched night at the museum will appreciate and understand better for this.. i made a right choice watching it today.. i feel so glad ^^ no more dragging till everyone is free and watch it on the dot on the day it is released haha.. i'm bored anyway...
its hilarious and adventurious.. nice..
the love part.. is just something i doubt any girls nowadays will do..
the cupid.. is just so nice.. songs ^^ love it..
monkey... now with 2.. is just as witty and cutey as ever haa.. irritating some said..
with the company ard.. i guess they enjoyed the show as much as i do too... i wish they had a good night..smilng with happiness sweetly into the dream and dreamnt of the show haaa... probably the love part.. where it could not really happpen in reality...
and whats next.... interesting... i went to..................
Jurong....................................................
which means...
HOME SWEET HOME...
keke..
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
just being bored and thinking of things to write..
midst covered my path... i see no one anymore except image of human..unforeseen faces and characters... behind is all clear yet i cant look back... but cant stop from wondering... whose behind me supporting me all this while...
looking sideways... eyes half tiled.. it is not clear whose walking alongside me... some familiar scent and image i might smell and seen before... but it will never be know fully without confirmation with them telling me who they are...after a long time and pass by lots of people..
turning to confirm, yet will partially slow down me again from the danger ahead... and will need help from them to alert me...everything requires attention... trade off... is what people always faces...
yet sometimes, should you pass by a good soul, your back is safetly covered for.. but should you pass by a bad soul and never alert yourself from shoving away from them, you will never know what will they do behind your back.. yet looking back to prevent and cure what they might do will slow your progress down again and you got to stop walking.. probably hurt you so much that you need time to recover before you look forward and progress again.. crooks.. thats what i call those bastards...
along the road.. you may walked a wrong path.. miss out things and caused inconveniece and harm to others but there is no perfect road and smooth sailing ... forgiveness and willing to change and walk the correct path will lead you to your destination.. avoid mistakes.. or you will hold yourself back by trouble that you caused before and when others are not forgiving enough to stop bringing harm to you...
be grateful...for frds supporting you behind... maybe you cannot look back but help them move forward when they want to and grab you for help if your side are empty and able to and walk side by side to face the danger... ignore them and they will leave your life forever as your distance between each other is lengthened.. and dun forget.. they are behind you.. good soul turn bad.. that is the last thing you want to know...... look up to those in front.. you might want to know what they do to be ahead of you...
whatever it is... sometimes... you need to rest.. or else you might lost track of where you are heading due to fatigue and need to give yourself time to review and think through your route so you will be able to adjust yourself.. people may help you but they got their own route to go through too and help cannot be forever..
look up... observe the sky... see how the times flies day by day... so while resting.. you can make sure you do not take too long... and rest enough and make sure you move on short after you rested enough.. or else staying there and keep reviewing will lead you no where...its sometimes the emotional feeling that is most hard to fight for you to press on...help and encouragement will be needed when you cant stand on yourself temporary... but what matter most is yourself...
press on.. be brave... walk through your mistakes... master your fear... be... the better you..
---------THE END---------------
looking sideways... eyes half tiled.. it is not clear whose walking alongside me... some familiar scent and image i might smell and seen before... but it will never be know fully without confirmation with them telling me who they are...after a long time and pass by lots of people..
turning to confirm, yet will partially slow down me again from the danger ahead... and will need help from them to alert me...everything requires attention... trade off... is what people always faces...
yet sometimes, should you pass by a good soul, your back is safetly covered for.. but should you pass by a bad soul and never alert yourself from shoving away from them, you will never know what will they do behind your back.. yet looking back to prevent and cure what they might do will slow your progress down again and you got to stop walking.. probably hurt you so much that you need time to recover before you look forward and progress again.. crooks.. thats what i call those bastards...
along the road.. you may walked a wrong path.. miss out things and caused inconveniece and harm to others but there is no perfect road and smooth sailing ... forgiveness and willing to change and walk the correct path will lead you to your destination.. avoid mistakes.. or you will hold yourself back by trouble that you caused before and when others are not forgiving enough to stop bringing harm to you...
be grateful...for frds supporting you behind... maybe you cannot look back but help them move forward when they want to and grab you for help if your side are empty and able to and walk side by side to face the danger... ignore them and they will leave your life forever as your distance between each other is lengthened.. and dun forget.. they are behind you.. good soul turn bad.. that is the last thing you want to know...... look up to those in front.. you might want to know what they do to be ahead of you...
whatever it is... sometimes... you need to rest.. or else you might lost track of where you are heading due to fatigue and need to give yourself time to review and think through your route so you will be able to adjust yourself.. people may help you but they got their own route to go through too and help cannot be forever..
look up... observe the sky... see how the times flies day by day... so while resting.. you can make sure you do not take too long... and rest enough and make sure you move on short after you rested enough.. or else staying there and keep reviewing will lead you no where...its sometimes the emotional feeling that is most hard to fight for you to press on...help and encouragement will be needed when you cant stand on yourself temporary... but what matter most is yourself...
press on.. be brave... walk through your mistakes... master your fear... be... the better you..
---------THE END---------------
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Friday, May 15, 2009
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
you know what?
i was reading my last blog.. slapped myself a little again...
my mum's back... now i appreciate it.... with someone ard and with no one ard is simply different..
althoug you may stick to your room as usual, theatmosphere and feeling is simmply different..
i actually feel like staying home and have the mood to watch movie and drama at home...things that never will occur to me when no one is home..
i ever have this thought on what will i be if i had never commit such a grave error back then.... will life be much better than now..
probably without a bad name.. things will go on in a easier mode.....i just wish i never put my clinque in the position of being classified as weirdo and broke their possibility of getting to know friends due to me..
still..... i got myself to repair out of the bad name.. maybe.. mistakes makes me grow up.. i needed it to improve.. which i said before.. i want to be better and better yet i cant seem to find what to be better on and this mistake just makes me realised things.. revealed me to many if not, all the things i have to become better on...
and for once.. i started to feel like not knowing hhaa...well well... for the better me.....lets strive...
BE THE BEST OUT OF THE WORLD...... probably this is what it takes to really put my dreams into practice and finally be what i always wanted to achieve.. starting from personality that will eventually lead to my destination...if i were to make what i thinnk real.... i got THAT MUCH to learn before i really excel to be what i thiink i can be......
and laziness is sure the top of the list...combined with some personality changes for a start...
WAY TO GO....<-- sounnds a long way and demoralising so i change
ITS NOT GONNA BE LONG..GOGOGO!!!!!
^^ i knoow self hynotised dun work nor writing down so TIMe.. thats all i need... gotta prove it.... yeah!!! <-- i always hate to admit but this time i have to agree.... my elder brother was right.. i have to prove things.. and my eldest was right too... put words into action and stop procastinating.. i have great siblings and parents... i regretted putting their upbringing to a doubt by my foolish conduct...
r/s... although people says first time sure fail so go get experience.. but i dun like experience.. this is no play thing thoough it is needed to know what right to do and whats not in being tgt with someone..i only hope.. if it comes it will stay.. lets start first in making myself better...others... will makes its way and find a chapter in my life someday..
my mum's back... now i appreciate it.... with someone ard and with no one ard is simply different..
althoug you may stick to your room as usual, theatmosphere and feeling is simmply different..
i actually feel like staying home and have the mood to watch movie and drama at home...things that never will occur to me when no one is home..
i ever have this thought on what will i be if i had never commit such a grave error back then.... will life be much better than now..
probably without a bad name.. things will go on in a easier mode.....i just wish i never put my clinque in the position of being classified as weirdo and broke their possibility of getting to know friends due to me..
still..... i got myself to repair out of the bad name.. maybe.. mistakes makes me grow up.. i needed it to improve.. which i said before.. i want to be better and better yet i cant seem to find what to be better on and this mistake just makes me realised things.. revealed me to many if not, all the things i have to become better on...
and for once.. i started to feel like not knowing hhaa...well well... for the better me.....lets strive...
BE THE BEST OUT OF THE WORLD...... probably this is what it takes to really put my dreams into practice and finally be what i always wanted to achieve.. starting from personality that will eventually lead to my destination...if i were to make what i thinnk real.... i got THAT MUCH to learn before i really excel to be what i thiink i can be......
and laziness is sure the top of the list...combined with some personality changes for a start...
WAY TO GO....<-- sounnds a long way and demoralising so i change
ITS NOT GONNA BE LONG..GOGOGO!!!!!
^^ i knoow self hynotised dun work nor writing down so TIMe.. thats all i need... gotta prove it.... yeah!!! <-- i always hate to admit but this time i have to agree.... my elder brother was right.. i have to prove things.. and my eldest was right too... put words into action and stop procastinating.. i have great siblings and parents... i regretted putting their upbringing to a doubt by my foolish conduct...
r/s... although people says first time sure fail so go get experience.. but i dun like experience.. this is no play thing thoough it is needed to know what right to do and whats not in being tgt with someone..i only hope.. if it comes it will stay.. lets start first in making myself better...others... will makes its way and find a chapter in my life someday..
Monday, May 11, 2009
just something
it was told that a man should fight for his love and what he belief in despite the obstacles and differences that behold him in front..
i wonder if i should do the same...
face the storm again and reach for the epicentre ?
current answer: unknown... i am not a good calibre enough for this thingy..and i dun have what a typical man should have -->self confidence...
but whatever it is.. i guess ..just friends....
what i meant is.... not going to get gf at current
i wonder if i should do the same...
face the storm again and reach for the epicentre ?
current answer: unknown... i am not a good calibre enough for this thingy..and i dun have what a typical man should have -->self confidence...
but whatever it is.. i guess ..just friends....
what i meant is.... not going to get gf at current
Friday, May 8, 2009
1,2,3 and..
exam is over.... gonna give myself 2 day break since it be weekend..
after that i am going to so visit agenbcy and hope to get a job...
sigh now that exam is over..have no idea what to do...
nothing to occupy my mind..
need money..
maybe will go back malaysia if really cant find..
haiz.. everyone is leaving... so sad...
for once i thought i can be no longer a loner... yet i think i got to accept beiing one... just cant seem to bond with people since i think it lies with me..
maybe admitting defeat will just make my life better... no expectation, no sadness, no depression, no nothing..life will be happier and content..
probably if i cant mixed in to the group who chase fashion and being look down at and said shitty things regarding dressing, i guess i should just take it.. cant satisfy everyone everything anyway
haiz some friends i really wanna keep yet due to other tell me not so friendly, i dun try to go talk... in the end, i also dunno how i project to them.. think if i cant secure them, i just have to let go..
well............ lets not go further................
see how... what meant to be will be....
always say all this sigh.. i should learn to shut up.. lol
till now
after that i am going to so visit agenbcy and hope to get a job...
sigh now that exam is over..have no idea what to do...
nothing to occupy my mind..
need money..
maybe will go back malaysia if really cant find..
haiz.. everyone is leaving... so sad...
for once i thought i can be no longer a loner... yet i think i got to accept beiing one... just cant seem to bond with people since i think it lies with me..
maybe admitting defeat will just make my life better... no expectation, no sadness, no depression, no nothing..life will be happier and content..
probably if i cant mixed in to the group who chase fashion and being look down at and said shitty things regarding dressing, i guess i should just take it.. cant satisfy everyone everything anyway
haiz some friends i really wanna keep yet due to other tell me not so friendly, i dun try to go talk... in the end, i also dunno how i project to them.. think if i cant secure them, i just have to let go..
well............ lets not go further................
see how... what meant to be will be....
always say all this sigh.. i should learn to shut up.. lol
till now
Sunday, May 3, 2009
exam
i feel bad.. despite trying.. i still have a feeling i am going to fail..
did not do well alr is not good..
failure to get hd or di is alr not satisfying parent expectation..
yet now i am going to fail..... wtf have i been doing...
the rest of the ppaper should be ok.. hope to perform..
yet this fail will have a great impact on my life
geezz....
kah yau!!!! not well learnt enough to display your full capability... 1 demerit point... <-- crazy i am talking to myself ..insane man...lol
discipline!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!discipline!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
motivation!!!!!!!!!!!!!! motivation!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
seek knowledge!!!!!!!!!!!sek improvement!!!!!!!!!!!
GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
did not do well alr is not good..
failure to get hd or di is alr not satisfying parent expectation..
yet now i am going to fail..... wtf have i been doing...
the rest of the ppaper should be ok.. hope to perform..
yet this fail will have a great impact on my life
geezz....
kah yau!!!! not well learnt enough to display your full capability... 1 demerit point... <-- crazy i am talking to myself ..insane man...lol
discipline!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!discipline!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
motivation!!!!!!!!!!!!!! motivation!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
seek knowledge!!!!!!!!!!!sek improvement!!!!!!!!!!!
GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
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