:)

i feel happy inside....
for long it seems i had not had time for myself...
actually the slacking is not bad...

i enjoyed my time nevertheless....
maybe its the long break and leaving those need to maintain, look out and watch it stress from those newly found classmate that makes me now feeling what a blissful state i can be in now..

i dunno...just simply so stress free....
i still enjoy my simple life... moneyless but still hehe.. dunno happy thats all..
soon celebrating my mum birthday.... with so many relative coming.. hehe.. hope it be a wonderful time..

sunday is the only time i may need to worry.... cos i be gng out with uni classmates.. generation where every action counts.. bless me... cos there are always people whom i not sure if will have prejudice against me or not...

anyway.... i will be skipping bball for mum today.. family gathering..

mon gonna spend sunday also... sigh... actually, i would love to have low budget outing.... but well mon is bdae celebration so bo bian.. sun, actually is very hesistant as its roller blade.. costly to me for an outing...if dun go, dunno what people will likely say.. sighz... people now say i too sensitive... but then, given the kind of pressure i am in with these kind of people who may misunderstand me anytime, what you expect me to behave.. if things still dun work out as fine, i will reallyy ignore and dun care..... leave the circle totally.... dun say club, not even makan.... if thing s really have its way to made me feeel the striving is pointless apart from what effort i put in .....

of cos i will feel like not giving up, but if things really have to be that way, i got to let it be....

bad remark always has its way to say abt people, no matter who you are....even one kind man good act can be said as got other meaning when its universal known its out of kindness... thats how bad society can be at times ....you will understand in future....

well i cant pin point to any cos it might arise anger among anyone in the world thus, please forgive me if my wording offended any.. i'm sorry..

actually, people might be wondering why i need to be so call overly cautious and sensitive.... i have only one answer.... you have not met people that make you understand how to be more sensitive and careful in your wordings in this society.. when things do not happen to people, they cannot imagine how one phrase of wording from a blog can bring trouble.. might even infringe govt policy who knows.... read more news... understand the world more on how somethings that look absurb to you actually did happened to people...

life... is always so unpredictable... recall how disaster happened to us way before.. who would have thought they will happen? but in the end it did happen...



even lightning strike a tree and collapse killing people those incident also have...
lighting too choon or that person suay? no.. its merely how life is so unpredictable...so people will always see and say "it will not happen to me.." who would have thought the person who got hit by the treee will think it will happen to him or her?
think again... are you really taking things for granted? not to be overly cautious is true but, have you taken the neccessary step to prevent? or at least minimise? when it is possible to do so...

food for thought..
up to individual to think abt it and give an answer to themselves...