i wonder what willl happen on my birthday.. clubbing stuff aside, day time i doubt i can see my best frd nor clinque ard to celebrate my birthday..

doubt there willl be any surprise..

think, it will be a plain just another day thing..

i wonder how many remember my birthday and might want to celebrate if i call for an event to celebrate my birthday..

i am lacking energy to interact and try to maintain relationship with people... it is running out.. who can re-energize it?

sometimes i sincerely want to talk to the person but i am lacking the energy to express my interest externally making people feel i dun want to talk to them..nor quick enough to think of something to crap at the right moment..

genuine frds come to interact at times when i feel lacking of energy.. i feel so bad that i appear unfriendly ... how i wish i got energy level that will not die down and need others to brighten it up at times..

so sick and tired of the things ard me... need to handle so many thing, need to care abt so many things... why can life just be simple...

now.. finding a joob.. earn income....picking myself up from no energy to do stuff.... i have pproblem with myself haha...just simply no mood .....what a long PMS... is it an early geng nian qi? ok alrite crap lame..... nt funny.... no link...... but stilll ..... whatever...

ok enough of writing... these are feeling as of current... will it last or not depends...