my thoughts

i had once thought of aLL these.....

when you cough , slip some cough syrup or at least sweet into your bag or place at your desk.. (found no chance and ate it away)

fold a star from somewhere with your first letter of your name and my name, and put it into your bag.. (in the end i throw it away)

give you encourgement before exam face to face when you are wearing white dress.. (will be quite weird if i stop and cheer you only since diff room thus i walk pass)

and some others...

anyway... think it doesn't matter anymore.... that was all the past...

now... am just going to make frds ard... am not gng to think abt it... maybe.. remaining single till i have made myself way better for people to accept me first in anyway... cant find people who accept me as who i am so i gonna change...

if you were to give me a choice, i rather things to be simple and carefree.... no need care image, want to wear what just wear, want to say what just say so long not offending...happy can alr...

i spent so much alr... just for these... and you know?? i initially wanted to save up for a car in msia so i go back can drive..i heard a ok second hand cheap car need ard $10,000...of cos its now in sing, convert it to ringgit.. i was at $3400 alr... well now its negative.. plus no job..kinda sad.. for the current big small matters, i have to spend.. used it on socialising... but somehow, i feel, i wasted the money... hope something can help me not to regret what i did..with the loads and lousy concentration and speed in picking up schoolwork, i cant work in sch days else main target for grade in sch work sure suffer.. am not working yet did not as good alr..

am trying to pick up reading so when sch starts i can regularly revise schwork as i have the habit now..what to do.. no work so must find things to do... i now plan for myself you see... i have yet to touch malay language.... i read the book "know can do" it says abt focus.. true indeed.. i lacking in it..cant do things well... when i really find my focus, i can really do better..thus, bit by bit, step by step bah....

r/s i guess, sigh, i have no clue what to do abt it.... leaving it aside first..until someone whack me awake and get me do something abt it.. haa think gonna let people ard me worried abt my future alr.. no choice.. no skill, no criteria, no nth........ at least thats what i think of myself.. quite inferior and negative thinking..

alrite.. sat chinese garden nearby jurong east swimming complex with relative at evening for swim, sun east coast i guess for roller blading with shawn and gf,zam and richie.....mon tiong bahru clinque li shi bdae celebration.....only this weekend busy .... 7 dec shanghai rouge.. am gonna to be oldies wear lol shanghai theme i dun have, just gonna wear any cloth nearest to oldies hehe.. can comb back side parking alr haaa.. keke

maybe.. just maybe... go club when frd come back to ZIRCA ... wait he free... and rest of unforeseen outing will depends.. since now FINALLLY my all best frds will be out of exam and free for outing soon....... and whether their assignment for holidays got any to do or what.. just dunno working personnel free or not..

wondering when is poly meeting up

wondering which day of dec is YEP, youth expedition project meeting up... vietnam volunteers and sp people ... hope to see you all soon..

well christmas and new year eve dunno got go club or not.. then sch reopen soon... 3 more sem and we willl be graduated should everything go smoothly...

life in uni is not as exciting as i think it can be..... still i think my bro is happier.. cos, to be exciting, need lotsa close frd in that uni and been meeting up.. i dun think i have any.. kinda bored... i guess no money bah and hae commitment..well who ask me not to have any commitment..in terms of job or whatever...... partly, i no money la.... lol sigh shit la.. lol....

ok bb getting longwinded...