i know i should be working, i know i should be slping.. but no doubt i cant....

maybe should write what i did.....

sat st james, before that ktv.... ktv is rather simple but happy event since i am with my best frd.. marina square again.. our favourite hangout....

then, i wore their shirt to st james.... kept one in pouch... initially wanted to wear others but also kept in bag cos their shirt is nicer ha..

then.. to st james.... i dunno what to say abt it.... i bet there are potential misunderstanding.... first i know others open bottlee... but later on, you see me holding cup does not means i insist on drinking... i bet people must be thinking i fuking wanted to drink so much despite umpteeen reminder that not to as he pai sei its his frd open bottle...

i was actually, offered.. and reason why i hold it for so long would really means i am trying to shake off in a way or another.. but i guess, he also dun like me.. just entertaining... i bet many dun like me .. some might not even turn up due to that....i wouldn't say totally its the reason, but probably partial..

fine experience.. i 'll improve.... in future not really any thing can beat me down easily anymore after this.. but no doubt, i rather things to be smooth lol... i am still lazy at heart to face things and accept changes to normal safe routine....

i bet, my initial motive during start of uni to try out disobeying my own conscious to try things out for unknown result and experience prove to be a pain in the neck... who says you can achieve success when you step out of your comfort zone?? crap... appropriate is also a main component in success... stepping out inappropriately will only make you fall greater than you think you will.... timing is also another crucial factor ...... whoever that do not encalcate all these in equal standing is not as successful and right in their theory in my comment..... please do not speak of the skin for people to easily understand yet nv telll them the way to do it for people who are not as lucky to fall greatly... anything is like share market.... stepping out of comfort zone to invest also need appropriate level of money that can help you endure hardship to certain extend and timing have to be right..... luck is needed too...... and everythig, has its stages to go through before certain things can be done...

thus..... well...... i learnt a lot... not enough for the world.. at least i have yet to figure out the fakeness, the reaction, the backstabber, and the way to do things to tackle it all....

gonna prepare myself... at least mentally for the world... firm is something i always nv do correctly and appropriately when needed...

anyway... went eat at cine on mon... cake and present... so nice....

i bet.... certain frdship once broken will not come back again..... its true what done leaving a blackmark cannot be undone... goodness in the start will accumulate more goodness and black dot in the beginning will only lead to more negative thinking in whatever thing you do regardless of how hard you try....thats partially how a human mind works... thus con man are able to succeed in cheating people when others are cheated by their goodness in the beginning...

thus, i urge all people... really understand you frd to core and not let misunderstanding to bring about breaking of ties in future.... trust is one very crucial thing no matter relationship or frdship...

everything, although different in their own aspects, stick to the big understanding and trust part. impression, plays a great part in your day to day people encounter that determine the stairway to good or bad things in future...

forgive and forget......

however good in understanding, do require practice in reality.. theory can get 100% but without practice, it is useless....

come on... do it..... good luck.... :)